relfections of 17 and then some

The Majesty of His wonders . . . . make me say WOW and AWESOME and . . . I am speechless.

Wow . . . it is so wild to see the world through the girls eyes! I am sooooo very glad that they didn't grow up any other way than in Jesus Christ from the get go.

You know I remember going to Bible College and wondering, "What stories that everyone grew up on? What experiences of Jesus as a child in him? What, What, What? and Where?" I was like a sponge that was thrown away in the desert and being saturated didn't even seem possible until a rock climbing experience in Boulder Colorado with a bunch of "strangers" literally and figuratively speaking. They were 'different', I was looking, searching, and pondering their differences while loving the Rockies (since I LOVE THE MOUNTAINS - and ALWAYS WILL!!!) and the day's event. Yes it was the clear answer to hearing my "calling".

17 & 15 they returned from Colorado and "shinning"! Awed yet again be the splendor of God's Grace and Mercy now through my girls discovering God in a much deeper way than I did in those wonderful Mountains along the Rockies Majesty! They were literally breaking from from the world, sins that I have no clue was 'tying them down". Tues. night while I was prayer journaling for them, the Holy Spirit was already "Blowing and Burning" in their souls. He moved in where I will never be - Praise the Lord for that! My purpose to try my best to just be in Jesus and try my best to live it. I remember 17 for me was discovering Jesus for the first time. Falling deeply in love with him and beginning a metamorphosis that years later my 17 and 15 year old girls would get to know him on a vastly different yet the same way - TRUE LOVE - Agape Style! WOW!

You see . . . I have learned a lot over the past 7 months. Through some tough times yet while climbing the "rocks of life" there are always risks, but when fastened securely to Jesus Christ he knows the pains, the slipping, the falls, the hanging on for dear life and the TRUST that comes with the TRUTH of reality. The Hope and knowing He's not gone but as sure as those very Rocks I'm climbing. Yep my early teens seem to have seemed to re circle and make me remember again - It's NOT about ME! He is my sure foundation, The girls sure foundation and just like he called me, answered me and guides me he is doing the same for them the way HE knows is BEST!

June 2009 has been a year of renewal through the climbing experiances that have had some challenges, and some victories that exceeded my expectations. Thanks Yvonne for sharing the Love of Jesus Christ and Never stopping with a "no" response to anything! Because now even a third daughter surrendered her life to her allegiance to Jesus Christ by accepting Him into her life then being immersed. Yes life is full aroma of the wind.

Thank You Jesus for coming and asking me to follow. For I wouldn't have the joy of seeing the fruit of Your life. Amen.

The reflections of 17 . . . . and then some - Your AWESOME LORD!

"Your MUM" (mommy) :-) is praying

Oh the joys of being a "MUM"!

3 weeks into summer and I am joyful! Joyful that while Kent, Faith, Emily, Hadassah, and I along with Reagan the little girl we care for were at 3 camp weeks together, we endured the discovery of finding Christ in a different way in depths unfathomable. This Mum was praying for many things beginning with renewed vision.

Let me shine some light. I returned once again; after my "cave" moments since . . . well a very tough and difficult past in ministry and some healing now, to prayer journaling. Which I might add has been refreshing. My 98.8% Godincidence moments :-). Again this Mum - praying for protection from the world.

See while in week one not only did we endure severe weather, Mya and Tia were on their own serviving a Tornado Warning at another camp roughly almost 2 hours away in the opposite direction along with their own severe weather. During that time - Once again the prayer journaling began. 2 of my four requests answered. :-) Beyond my requests. Awaiting the other 2 to reveal the answers on God's perfect timing. All while discovering my true Love in a whole new way - which prepared me for something altogether breath taking. Over the past three weeks (and 3 and one half months) my knees have become very sore from bending toward Heaven. Yet I love Him for NEVER being late and being the "True Seeker" of me. For now I understand why he says that when I seek him with all my heart I shall find him (Jeremiah 29:11-ff) I shall find him. So again because of this simple truth - this MUM is praying again for Direction, Truth, Love and the wisdom to be discerning for our home individually and together.

The next week another severe weather week this time all of together except Mya. While we were dealing with the "Flash Flood" that we were spared the lives of two in particular - Praise the Lord our Abba Father God. in Less that 1 hour and 15 minutes we had a down pour that made a tiny weeny creek turn into a very bold, raging river brought some amazement. Were we ready for the outcome? Not fully - really just praiseworthy for mercy and grace in a dark evening. Amazing. Then in the wake of the outlook of possible F3 maybe F4 tornado weather praise Him for not allowing that to take place. WOW! more pray journaling yet incredible peace. Once a MUM the bended knees are Never the same for prayer is intensely keen and trusting upon the strength of Him alone. During this time . . . Faith realizes the raging waters with in and asks to rededicate her life to Jesus Christ because of a little girl who gave her life to her ministry to place the flowers in the vase up until 2-3 days before her return to Heaven.

Then this week incredible HEAT along with Humidity. Yikes. Yet more prayer. For again Mya and Tia are now in a location over 16 hours away discovering the only one who will Love them more than me. Again this Mum is praying!!! Praying for the drought of a life withering in the desert of the world. Parched yet not aware of the ramifications of death without truth that is absolute. This week, Faith found her Lord in a stronger walk to the point of wanting to relinquish her life to Jesus Christ. Baptized to begin a whole new life in the only one who matters 100%! "As a new born babe craves the pure milk of the word" I literally watched Hadassah - trust me with that nutrients the last three weeks much like I have been doing over the last three weeks gripping, gullping, grasping and gravitating for more with every breath of each prayer for the girls, my friends, those whom are difficult for me to pray for and for a renewed spirit. This Mum is STILL praying!

I am answering his call and . . . I am awaiting His BEST through being a Mum whole hearted, while still using the ventilator to have the pure oxygen from the Living Word that is Active and Living with the ability to breathe Him in deeply while exhaling Him even more so!

Our Rose(s) are blooming ;-)

well . . . the girls are growing up so very quickly. Tomorrow is the official last day of school for "The grils" ;-P

Hadassah is a "wee wittle fing" but finally in the double digits @ 11lbs and 25" YEAH! She fortunately is probably going to be one of the tallest in our fam. She is also to the point where she has lost MOST of her hair (poor thing ;-/ . . . so I try to really make sure she is wearing some type of BOW!

Emily . . . she was an Elite Eagle! Way to go Emily. She was so excited. I am thrilled she made it through a tough year for her ending on such an EXCELLENT NOTE!!!! We're proud of you!

Faith is going to be very busy and she to is only 1&1/2 " shorter than me. ;-( although she sees it as a wonderful thing ;-). Way to go Faith you had an incredible year and finished very positively!

Tia . . . is 5'5" and well getting ready to be free from school. She has done wonderful in school this year. Thanks Mrs. Lock for encouraging her to strive much harder this year - she stretched herself and did very well. Way to go - we Believe in You!

Mya has received her first sets of proofs for her Sr. pictures - Yikes. She has done an incredible job this year with her prep courses and exceeded in her achievements beyond our wildest dreams - Love ya and keep it up, very proud of You!

One getting to graduate and "fly" and another getting ready to be more "mobile" and every one else . . . "Calgon take me away . . . " :-) No I love You wonderful 5 BEAUTIES greatly!

Yep our garden of Roses are beautiful from youngest to oldest - here they are Lord - YOURS!!!

I'll try to Keep fertilizing, keep watering, keep pruning and the garden will BLOOM and will be fragrant to hand a Full bouquet over - therefore it will never die in HIS HANDS!

ok . . . today

Okay . . . Okay - How is yours?

I'll have to come back another day,
for time seems short but now really quick, "lickity split"

a drizzly rain, soft drops mist -
ahhhh yep' I'll return another day.

Eyes through the Lens (attempt #2)

WOW! Life . . . Full of riches in Grace and Mercy. Explosion of depths unfathomable.

Here let me attempt to convey my thought articulately, which at many instances tends to get all messy. As a mom, which many of you are; we all have the same 24 hours in a day but some of you seem to get so much more accomplished ;-) PTL. Okay so we all know how much I have an insatiable love for EYES. It is my strengthen as well as my weakness. I also Love the eyes of PHOTOGRAPHY which many of you also have a deep realization of that as well.

Now what I have seen in a flash of less than a months time table. Since the last week in April . . . Great memories, events, bewildering yet thought provoking happen stances have arrived as well have embedded my thoughts.

As she pulled up the slightly weighted object to her right pupil, balancing ever so gently, adjusting the focus to capture T - I - M - E in a quick shutter of rapid speed; her mind raced of the outpouring the spirit was working with in the vast recesses of her soul. Eye to Eye, Soul to Soul there it was. A stirring deep within. A whisper. A small voice. "I AM your eyes forever ANA" therefore, let me show you, stretch you, guide you, LOVE YOU. Yes these are my eyes that are now being shared with you. An event time line of Joy in the midst of uncertainty.

Reflections through the Lens. Bill & Dorothy Miller Ministry- music through the Baby Grand "singing" the old Hymns of time as Bills fingers glide across the Ivory/Ebony keys as a gentle wave ebbs and flows on the countless sea shores. Rhythmic, soothing, comforting. Then not 3 days later . . . a bountiful banquet with believers then Simple Grace Ministry with the Mitchell Family a breath taking countenance and message with music. Their ability to convey a wonderful message of Grace,Mercy, and Forgiveness than a unity of Compassion. All 7 family members present with different yet the same abilities brought together to revive this desert dry parched soul to renewal. ;-) Then mix in the refreshing study and reflection time sitting among a "bakers dozen" of sisters in Christ every other week; sharing while being very transparent & real to a rewarding renewal of Joy and Hope. All captured with new eyes looking through 35mm lenses now turned reflection. Let me continue.

Bill Miller - Baby Grand Piano Concerto. Simple Grace - The Mitchell Family display of Grace simply granted. Bible searching study & reflection. Concerts of Song with the girls whether at home or an organized setting. Prom preparations, The Apple Blossom Parade, Hadassahs' growth, family friends answered prayers for their children, The Joys' of Graduation & Celebrations shared with ministry Families past & present and the JOY of another daughters birthday reflection. All captured through LENSES of mine EYES forever etched in my being.

Milestones.

Reflections.

Compassion. Mercy. Grace. Joy. Peace.

My eyes saw and continue to see all of these attributes in a new way, yet once again captured as my vision was focusing; My "Eyes through the Lens" of memories desired to be captured.

What does your Lens reflect?