Anxious?

Why? Why do we become anxious? Why do we think we need to be "in control of EVERYTHING?" What is the struggle about? really?

I am so excited for what is in my life right now. God has really been working on my heart A LOT and it all began with a study on Unconditional Forgiveness & "The Joseph Journey" - both by Brian Zahnd. Cultivating, burying, dieing, watering, sprouting, journey to growth. So much has been permeating this heart, soul, life of mine. It is inexpressible. Why? Because it is a journey with my FIRST LOVE!!!

OUCH. Yet very necessary. Pruning. rightfully so. Vices necessary to be rid of. Pent up pasts now is the time to take care of . . . and boy is He.

He has been speaking to me for quite some time. It has brought some pain. Some deep stretching. Like I said before agonizing pruning but very necessary. When walking with Jesus it requires FAITH! BELIEF! Obedience!!!

Then His voice whispers to me, "Ana, are your ready?" my sheepish soft reply, "I don't know but I am willing. Is it going to .. . . you know hurt?" "Yes. It may be harder more so in some areas than others. But are you ready? Some others are not going to understand." I trust you Lord, Your the only one I am truly able to fully trust. I am ready. Hold me please. And as Hadassah has been saying, "Don't LEAVE ME, please don't leave me!"

Then he says,

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the PEACE of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" - Philippians 4:6-7

It is time. Our journey has begun. Don't run. Just persevere and remain steady and OBEY.

Thank You, Lord. I LOVE YOU! I TRUST YOU. I am willing - YOU WILL BE DONE!

It's Time

I can not believe it. It is here. Time to serve on the long awaited prayer since June 2008. It is actually here. Amazing how much has happened since that summer! I have been having dreams. Dreams that well . . . are HIS!

In the natural face before getting ready I want to say:

To my precious family- I LOVE YOU MUCH!

Kent Thank You, Girls walk in Jesus ALL the days of your LIFE!!! SHINE for Jesus!!! Our family mantra since . . . goodness me I don't know how long it has been since we started that cliche in our home as you walk out the door! Just KNOW that I LOVE YOU six so much!!! Thank You for the moments to right now. Upon my return I am so exited to share with you what the Lord has been revealing! I LOVE YOU JESUS with ALL MY HEART, SOUL AND MIND! WOW and Thank You for allowing me to be a part of answered prayer!!!!

Answered prayer is now here; October 2011.

Jeremiah 33:3, Philippians 4:8 and Ephesians 3:20

When the Lord

When the Lord leads, and we listen there are wonderful dividends filled with adventure. Even when we are shaking our heads because "we are not in control" of the situation.

soon to be wed

Jordan and Mya in worship together with Tennessee Musicians;

John Martin Keith and Sacred June

Other four Princesses

Where I have been praying about since June 2008 with conviction

and Below are some of the TEAM I will be with in nine short soon days!

The Lord is AWESOME and WONDERFUL even in the most of true Joy. Because it is not surrounded by the circumstance of "happenstance" about us but a lifestyle engraved in the palm of the Lord our SAVIOR!

So here is just a few snap shots of my life to make me smile!

A daddy with three of his Princesses!

See Ya!

I Samuel 15:22-23

Remember, "When the Lord . . . leads where will you follow?"

Baht Trailer - CIY Move

Oh my gooooodness, omgoodness

Have you ever a met a group of people and began to well up? Have you ever "knew" they were so as you thought they may be? Well Have Ya?

I am so excited. Why? Because in Late June 2008 I was carrying a precious little life in my womb and being convicted at the same time from a video I watched called BAHT at a CIY Youth event in Holland MI! My mind went into overdrive. My heart began to feel heavy and then tears slowly left a small trail down my check. Victims. Children. Girls from 4-27 years of age. Human & Sex Traffic victims. These ages covered all the ages of my children - ALL OF THEM! And to know that I was carrying another child at that time Crushed me!

I tell you all this because I began praying. Praying, PRAYING. Investigating. Researching. RAPHA HOUSE. I found a sponsored trip. My oldest child and I both ended up applying.

One thing led to another. One trip, two trips passed by however another was available. Left in the Lords Hands. We received the acceptance letter. Mya was placed on an October team 2010 just shy and under a year later because of timing of school. Finalization made. Acceptances cleared. We discovered we BOTH were accepted. Change of plans. Mya to DR. and myself to destination of origin. Pray, letters, Prayer, wait. W - A - I - T. decisions to post pone further- a decision well made; Grace extended. W - A - I - T ~ GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME, all seems positive! Hardship, sorrow, PRAYERS, "why's?" (like a child's question) - grief. Sorrow and Service to remember. W - A - I - T. Prayers, Prayers, PRAYERS. Many seasons of change. Placement made. OCTOBER 2011! It's here.

Skype - WE meet! We discuss! We introduce! They touched my heart more than they will know for all that has gone on during this journey. For Abba, Father, God knew "now is the time! NOW!!!" This will be part of your new family that you will be working along side for things you do not know. NOW!!!! WE smiled, we laughed. JOY to be encouraged by the timing of a PRAYER ANSWERED just shy of three and a half years. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness! IT IS HERE in 17 very short days!!!!!

Jeremiah 33:3 has been discovered to touch my heart this past year. A time to think of many things and while it has brought me through a great deal over this coarse of the past year, it has also allowed a learning for great things through Jesus Christ. A time to be a servant. He knew it was necessary for me to learn a lot.