Baht Trailer - CIY Move

Oh my gooooodness, omgoodness

Have you ever a met a group of people and began to well up? Have you ever "knew" they were so as you thought they may be? Well Have Ya?

I am so excited. Why? Because in Late June 2008 I was carrying a precious little life in my womb and being convicted at the same time from a video I watched called BAHT at a CIY Youth event in Holland MI! My mind went into overdrive. My heart began to feel heavy and then tears slowly left a small trail down my check. Victims. Children. Girls from 4-27 years of age. Human & Sex Traffic victims. These ages covered all the ages of my children - ALL OF THEM! And to know that I was carrying another child at that time Crushed me!

I tell you all this because I began praying. Praying, PRAYING. Investigating. Researching. RAPHA HOUSE. I found a sponsored trip. My oldest child and I both ended up applying.

One thing led to another. One trip, two trips passed by however another was available. Left in the Lords Hands. We received the acceptance letter. Mya was placed on an October team 2010 just shy and under a year later because of timing of school. Finalization made. Acceptances cleared. We discovered we BOTH were accepted. Change of plans. Mya to DR. and myself to destination of origin. Pray, letters, Prayer, wait. W - A - I - T. decisions to post pone further- a decision well made; Grace extended. W - A - I - T ~ GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME, all seems positive! Hardship, sorrow, PRAYERS, "why's?" (like a child's question) - grief. Sorrow and Service to remember. W - A - I - T. Prayers, Prayers, PRAYERS. Many seasons of change. Placement made. OCTOBER 2011! It's here.

Skype - WE meet! We discuss! We introduce! They touched my heart more than they will know for all that has gone on during this journey. For Abba, Father, God knew "now is the time! NOW!!!" This will be part of your new family that you will be working along side for things you do not know. NOW!!!! WE smiled, we laughed. JOY to be encouraged by the timing of a PRAYER ANSWERED just shy of three and a half years. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness! IT IS HERE in 17 very short days!!!!!

Jeremiah 33:3 has been discovered to touch my heart this past year. A time to think of many things and while it has brought me through a great deal over this coarse of the past year, it has also allowed a learning for great things through Jesus Christ. A time to be a servant. He knew it was necessary for me to learn a lot.

finding pasture through LOVE

1 “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. 8 This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other." John 15:1-16

To Love with all your heart is the only way to LOVE. There are those who think I don't LOVE them, however, that is not true. I do. The more I think about it, the more I pray for their blessings and joy. Even though. The more I realize no one can make me stop LOVING them - never. Love is a choice. Yes a choice and one that I know is more precious than all the gold or silver in the entire world. More precious than any words. LOVE is still Loving at all costs. No, i am not perfect. I have never claimed to be. It has been touched and retouched upon my heart, Love because He first Loved me. So it is my passion to LOVE to find pasture no matter to outcome while walking on this earth - LOVE.

"I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture." John 10:9

the question remains.

Spending a day with these women and having a great time with them, I turned to God and mediated on how much I do love family. ALL of my family - NO MATTER WHAT! These girls made me realize today how many prayers have been answered and how many more are being answered for the BEST in His Glory and his bidding.

So after reading scripture today, the question remains. What have I done in my life for the kingdom? If the Lord were to solidify my heart right now; would i be satisfied? Would I desire ever more and better results? If I were to be frozen in a picture frame would the "thousands words" be worth His Full Glory and not the worlds glory?

"Look, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what they have DONE."

Revelation 22:12 (September 17, 2011)

What have you done with your life?

eyes awakened, heart convicted

Sunday 9-11-11 a day to prepare for DR. A day that this heart of mine was being broken to really evaluate what God sees. This day when our country was remembering 9-11-01 ten years ago . . . TODAY (9-11-11)these hands were preparing for a future to reach out through hard work that would measure a harvest in such greater dividends. See after two very brutal storms in NW MO, a farmer allowed us to live out the gospel by gleaning his cornfields that the combine cannot pick up the abundance left behind. That gave an opportunity to prepare and pray over what lie ahead. Young to old alike working hand in hand our eyes are awakened and our hearts to be yet convicted. May we live to be scripture breathed in reality of the Harvest of souls!

I loved working this day and the next early Monday morning with a team of twelve to fill another harvest wagon.

"Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in Harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as afar as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written; "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. On the contrary;

"If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." Romans 12:9-21

"Remember this: Whoever SOWS SPARINGLY will also REAP SPARINGLY, and whoever SOWS GENEROUSLY will also REAP GENEROUSLY. Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to make all Grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. As it is written:

"He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor; his righteousness endures forever."

Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. you will be made rich n every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.

This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God's people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God.

Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the Gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else.

And in their prayers for you their heart swill go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. Tanks be to God for his indescribable gift!" II Corinthians 9:6-15