oh my heart

My mind is racing, My heart is pounding, My dreams are returning. My visions are becoming less hazy and more driven all with the reflection of a special life.

Reflection through time has come knocking on my hearts door because of Mom K's life. I have had only a short twenty five years. Why didn't I take more opportunity to _____ fill in the blank?

Why? I remember my first encounter with her and her entire family showing up at an NCC Basketball game and taking my breath away because I cared for her son, her first born. My heart accelerated at a NASCAR neck breaking speed. My body went numb and clammy all at the same time. If my glands could have went berserk it was then. They came in through those east doors entering the gymnasium; Mr and Mrs. V. Klundt, Keith, John, Julie and Keith's then "girl friend" Tabitha, who resembled me in an odd kind of way, semi look alike. I didn't know them until she said they are from out of town to see their son play basketball. I proceeded to inquire who their son was. When they announced their name I couldn't think clear let a lone give them their correct change back. YIKES, this is "his" family. The rest is history. :-) She captivated my heart when I saw her wonderfully bright blue eyes. They were a handsome family, If I could have crawled under the smallest grain of sand I would have. Then came the moment she and I had a "talk" when we were going to become "family" to ask her if I may call her "Mom K" and letting her know that I desired to call her my "Mother in LOVE." not "in - law", because I desired to have a positive relationship with her. :-) Yes it has been almost twenty five sweet memory years I have had this family as part of my hearts strings while Dad K and she: they have had forty four years testimony to marriage. Four weddings, many anniversaries, graduations of many kinds, twelve grandchildren, two grand - weddings; our life has created an incredible tapestry in our family "quilt/blanket"! Created stitch by stitch, laughter, quiet, tears, silence, in depth conversation, many "moves", surgeries, you name it we have traveled it together.

Her children can call her blessed and Can say Thank You for our life as a family. Dad and Mom K we love you! We are praying like mad for His sustaining comfort and a time to come together to live another day as a FAMILY bonded by those gentle blue eyes, touched by those soft hands, and to be here for you!

selfless love

Love is a wonderful heart issue. True Love is the BEST! True love doesn't politic for ones affections. It is patient! It is amazing how many times I see individuals who are so impatient with finding value by trying to make another think that they "love" them. It is rather sad really. Love is amazing~ that is action, not verbal ques to change or cloud ones thinking out of envy and jealousy. See I know many individuals who truly share LOVE correctly because it is a heart issue of sincere motives. Not presumptuous or flirtatious or wrong motive bearing or gossiping with evil intent. Let me illustrate it this way.

Fill in the Blanks with your personal name which is really where the word LOVE is exemplified.

____ is PATIENT,

____ is KIND,

____ does not envy,

____ does not boast,

____ is not proud.

____ is not rude,

____ it is not SELF-SEEKING,

____ is not easily angered,

____ keeps NO RECORD of wrongs,

LOVE, ____does not delight in evil but REJOICES with the TRUTH.

____ ALWAYS PROTECTS, always TRUSTS, always HOPES, always PERSEVERES.

LOVE never fails! Did you get that? If someone vies for your affections or heaven forbid we ourselves vie for another' out of selfish ambition, is that not self seeking? Or when one of the opposite sex tries to influence another to look elsewhere - (like at themselves)? hum . . . why not lean FULLY on the LORD? Because he really is true LOVE and when we capture His fullness, LOVE overflows from the abundance of our own hearts because of him living in us!

My Marmie (Mommy) is a HUGE example of this amazing example of LOVE to everyone around her ~ and I mean EVERYONE! Emily Hope since very, very young exemplifies Christs' LOVE amazingly. Mom K, has been one who lives this kind of LOVE as one example. There are many, many others I can think of who are this same epitome of illustration of TRUE and REAL LOVE. Slow, patient, long suffering, giving knowing it may not be returned or it can not be repaid, but love matters regardless with no inward expectation of "what about my needs." YES, These three are those who come to mind right off the bat, because their lavishing ways of compassionate selfless LOVE is sweet and they Love without reciprocal ambitions.

So if there is an individual who gives with expectation to receive immediate attention, don't bleed to death but . . . maybe, just maybe, it is time to evaluate TRUE LOVE through the eyes of CHRIST and LOVE as HE LOVES and live by EXAMPLE and bleed for LIFE!