Thursday, March 31, 2011

WHO exactly?

I am so amazed at what the Lord is teaching me lately. YES TEACHING me as well as stretching me. I have been praying like a crazy mad woman for him to give me a love for others that not even I could or even can comprehend. Boy has that been eye awakening. Why? Because true love, REAL steadfast, bed rock foundational LOVE is not in our grain naturally. Oh sure we THINK we know about LOVE but that is so NOT TRUE!
Not true? Yes, not true. From the time of conception where my; really OUR, life began, I/we am/are sinners. We live in a fallen world. Face it. But love is possible in only ONE. I thought I knew what Love is or even about love "but NOOoooooo". The more I try to love the harder it really is. Let me "try" and articulate it from a simpleton kind of mind.

I love because I care. ok. I love because we all want to be loved. Right? ok. I love because my Marmie loved by example. Praise the Lord. ok. I love because I was shown love in a tender hug, (Thank You Marmie) even with those who are "uncomfortable" being hugged later discover they need love through a simple hug. ok. I love because I always wanted and desired Daddy to tell and encourage me with a simple "I LOVE YOU HITA." ok, Fine. I thought love was pretty simple when I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart and with my life and the new decisions. I thought I understood. But the greatest love??? "Whoa Nelly," it is just not really totally something to fathom. It is the hardest to really apply. That is where it all began, March 18, 1984 on a very cold Sunday night. I don't know how many times I have read these words and tried to apply them.

"But I tell you who hear me: LOVE your enemies, DO GOOD to those who hate you, BLESS those who curse you, PRAY FOR those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. GIVE TO everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. DO TO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO TO YOU!!! . . . But LOVE your enemies, DO GOOD to them, and LEND TO them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be SONS OF THE MOST HIGH, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. BE MERCIFUL, just as your Father IS MERCIFUL. . . . . FORGIVE, and you WILL BE FORGIVEN. GIVE, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to YOU." Luke 6:27-ff NIV

Awhhhh, The "golden rule" taught to me by my family and reinstated in Mr. Baloney's classroom. "Sure, no problem." I don't have any enemies. Right? You see, when I started living along side with the creator, I realized step by step through the years, Love can hurt. It is risky. It is captivating when it is outside the family inner circle, and interest of relations to be developed. It is a . . . um . . . lust (some may think I am just admiring or noticing). Because our 'feelers' peek in an interest of another individual, it's still lust that brought the attraction. Then it creates an attraction to show interest. You know gals a hot iron warming up to a "ZING" and guys a "LIGHT SWITCH" simply on/off attraction. Butterflies flying like mad. Best foot forward alerts. Instantaneously ~ this is love ~ feelings caught up in the emotion.

Exponentially, I knew what I DIDN'T WANT! Therefore when love came outside of family; that is when I started to realize that I don't really know anything about it. Don't misunderstand, please. I Love my family (Bloodline) and my In-Loves (marriage line) and my daughters. It is definitely through them that I am still to this very day being transformed daily with true love, sacrificial selfless expression. But LOVE, "TWUE WUVE" is an attachment through commitment. OUCH, is that hard for some to hear? I loved Beth Moores' quote (slight paraphrase), "No one will love Keith more than I have loved Keith. I will love him more than anyone will EVER love him. And no one will ever be more angry with Keith or he with me than . . . . . . (a pause with a tap on the table as the laughter of relational experiences rumbles in and throughout the arena) EVER, EVER, EVER." We are human. We love because we want to be loved back. We expect. Don't we? That is why the gospels are so amazing. It's easy to love when things are going "our way" or with or to others that we "want" to love and with those that are not difficult to love. But AGAPE attachment love is filled with no selfish ambition or vain conceit. It is laced and intertwined with forgiveness, not running away to get the "next feeling of Love" when trouble comes my way, or the first or only argument or the literal feelings diminish and seem to vanish. Girls/Guys are you glad that Jesus Christ doesn't love us on "mood swings" through the turn of the on/off light switch? No! We LOVE because HE FIRST LOVED US from the beginning of T-I- M-E; and quite frankly STILL DOES!!!!

My heart through love is growing still and does has joy, peace, wounds with hurts & scars from loving so deeply. My love for Parents, siblings, my lover, my children, friends, saints and those who scripture calls my enemies still remains. True Love is for the taking and it requires much effort that puts them before myself at all costs, I just need to remember to daily yield it with the King and His example to LOVE. Who knows maybe just maybe it will take me to my death when I finally Love like HIM as best possibly on this side of HEAVEN.

All mankind.
Especially when it isn't the easiest but is still called

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Lesson from 19 - True Love

Okay so here is the 411 from an amazing Aha Night.

I went to our Bible Study and I came to an "AWE" moment through out the entire study.
First can I say, "Thank You Sandy H. for the 'UPPER ROOM' transparency/Intimacy with THE KING!" Oh My was that AWE MAZING!!!!!

Revelation 19 just jumped off the pages in such a cool and "ouch" kind of way. It filled me to the core of wanting even more. Don't stop here. We have to quit? A deep hunger of renewal. That upper room . . . if I may use the term has a lot of cleansing over the past three years. LOTS!!!!

See Beth taught us some things that quite frankly made me giggle from with in and lose a tear in one eye through out the Lesson. It was not a subjective feeling but it was a releasing of "Oh Yeah" pent up where did that come from awakening. The curriculum is NOW AND THEN a study in Revelation with Beth Moore. Over the past ten years off and on I have studied and I have thoroughly enjoyed every stretching in the time invested. It rejuvenated me to the core ~ the LIVING WORD OF GOD - Jehovah ~ I AM, He IS!!!!

WOW! He is so, so, so . . . . FAITHFUL! I just Love this Bridegroom with everything I posses. After tonight, I am so glad that I have and will continue to do so. It revives my soul, and puts a spring in my step. Joy, Peace, and many many other words I can not even fully express.

What a night!

1 Timothy 1:15

Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners -- of whom I am the worst.

"Oh my gushhhhhhhhhh that Haddy"

Okay so I turn around and find a few surprises over the past twenty four months
that match her exciting life ~
come walk with us through the past!
Well, here is a season of Pictures for you to enjoy:

Starting with what I discovered on my Mac this morning of "SELF PORTRAITS"
when the Mac was OFF:

Here are just a FEW:

Goodness me, out of the mouth of Babes. Her speech is impeccable. She has a vast vocabulary now and I don't grow weary of hearing her speak! I Love hearing her voice. It seems like "just yesterday" when we were surprised by our BLESSING soon to be arriving news! Wow; three years ago was our joy of discovery.

When she hears the door open she gasps deeply with THRILL in every inhale. Running then she looks at life we jubilant expression and a fevered pitch shouting; "I misssssss YOU, I missssssssss YOU!" "Hode (hold) YOU!" "HUGGGGG, hug, HUG! (she felt she needed to type also: kjjhhhhhg)" "Oh My gush I LOVE YOU" "Book, read a book" "thats so cooote (cute)" Oh the one that makes me giggle is when she sees ANY picture of herself, "Ooooooo, dats Hadday; OH MY GUSHHHHH (gosh), dats HADDYYYYYYYY!" and then she opens her eyes wide open and makes the most animated faces.

Enjoying life with all the girls makes me shout; "THANK YOU LORD!"

Monday, March 28, 2011

Three turned into an illustration

Okay well that chapter is about all the "lost." Like the Lost coin, the Lost sheep and the lost son. Great illustrations of how the Master feels about us when we are lost. He is ever more searching until we are FOUND.

Well our entire home went through this very situation of going through un ending searching. Searching and turning everything inside out, upside down and emptying everything that could have our "lost" item.

It wasn't until the girls were all down and we went through everything one more time. YIKES, where or where could it be? WHERE!

"Ana, Come here." "Did you find it?" "Come here please." Oh yes it was amazing here he has a bag sitting on top of the bench with some things and says "look" as I come around and peek into the bag of winter clothing and wrapped up between gloves and a hat our lost item was found. Or maybe remembered. We both giggled. Then my eyes finally fell heavy and immediately said a word of PRAISE and THANKSGIVING. It is only "one" and it was found.
Did it cause frustration? Yes after a while of "where did our steps take us through the day". It's when we begin to trust in the true source of reliance that our thoughts become clear, calm and focused.

I am so glad the Father finds pleasure and joy in all of us when "one" is once again Found. Although the ramifications are much more serious. ETERNALLY SERIOUS! Are you lost?
Wondering aimlessly with a void that keeps getting wider? Emptier? Unfulfilled? Then come! Come to the fountain of True Living Water! Drink the drink that satisfies beyond measure.

Jesus Christ brings Hope, brings joy and incomprehensible peace and brings life!

Why not turn to John 15 and be replenished with a truth that will lead you in a way that you'll never turn from. Blessings

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Is it three or four

Well how many of you know about Luke 15?

Can you tell me With out looking?

Let me know then I'll tell you a little secret. :-)

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Hoping verses Real . . . well what do you think?

Okay so I like a sweet sister named: Beth Moore and was reading one of her blogs, "For Real" and here is a quote that made me think, then pen in my own words something that made journaling very real to me.

"Then I thought about a specific season through which I went from hoping He was real to knowing He was real. Don’t get me wrong. I am still challenged to faith in many other matters and always will be, because “faith is the reality of what is hoped for, the proof of what is not seen” and “without faith it is impossible to please God.” (Hebrews 11:1,6) But I seldom sit around and wonder if God exists and still speaks and still acts. Like you, I still see as in a mirror darkly and I wonder why some things happen the way they do and how it will all work out and what some things in Scripture really mean. But “I know the One I have believed in.” (2 Timothy 1:12)" Beth Moore

My thoughts finally written down, after sharing this as a piece of my life and the answers to prayer many times! Thank You sweet sister Beth just for provoking one of my sweet memory reel and once again write down why I KNOW He is REAL and ALWAYS will be.

Oh my where do I begin?

Maybe right at the small 5 ROOM House kitchen table. It was when I was just a fairly young bride to a young youth minister of the gospel. Right during my devotions and the sweet pantry was bear. I had hoped it wasn’t wrong for me to be very honest with him. So as I was talking with him that I had a few potatoes, flour a few eggs and milk and other “basics” with nothing in our freezer. I could attempt to stretch for the rest of the month and Thanksgiving just a few short days away. We were not able to go “Home” to Colorado or Illinois where either of our families lived. So after spending time alone with Him; I had written in my journal that ONLY He and I communicated for A.C.T.S. prayers. I had asked with in that time if he would just find a way to provide a way for “a Cornish hen” and I could make that stretch for Thanksgiving and through out the rest of the month to make ends meet. I believed he could provide a means.
Well Mid afternoon, I received a knock on the door. It was a young construction working~single mom, who asked if she could come in because the led her there and she needed to talk to me. I was excited to have her over, since she was fairly new to our church. She cut to the chase and said that the Lord had brought her here on purpose. I smiled. She said that she couldn't stay long but that she had gone to a “sisters’ home” earlier that afternoon but the sister had her family surprise her with an unexpected visit. That is when the Lord ‘spoke’ to her to drive until he revealed where to go. She obeyed and drove to our place when he said for her, “turn here”. She had never known we lived here; so it made her smile when I opened the door. She proceeded to tell me that she had something in the trunk of her car that she needed help with. We walked out to her car. Upon her opening the trunk there were roughly six brown paper sacks and a mid sized cardboard box. She motioned that if I would grab the bags for her she would bring the box to the table. When we were finished unloading the sacks on the table she said, “Ana-Maria, I know this is unusual and we just recently met. I don’t mean anything but to pass this on to you. I had picked these items up and the Lord directed me here. I hope you don’t mind if I help you unpack the sacks.” To my amazement it was groceries. I began to weep. Then she said I have this box for you also. Upon opening it she revealed frozen meats; beef, pork and poultry. Then she said, “Not many people know what this is but . . .” . . . It was my answer to the prayer request I had just penned that very morning. Not one but TWO CORNISH HENS!!!! TWO! I balled like a baby. I had told her, “Tess, I have something to show you.” I quickly ran to my room and grabbed my prayer journal. I didn’t just read it but I showed it to her. Then she smiled the hugest grin and a small tear fell from her face. I knew right then ONLY ABBA FATHER GOD knew my request of my heart that morning. It wasn’t a “feeling”, or anything subjective during our prayer time that morning. It was my Faith and it was about Tess’ New found Faith. I KNEW he would provide the means some how. Like an odd job or something. But little did I know that he would BLESS TWO HOMES with the specifics of a prayer request and an obedient heart and a one hundred fold out pouring. All my request that morning was for A CORNISH HEN. He provided roughly six sacks AND a box full of frozen meats. But the very last thing revealed was the two Cornish hens! Those two sweet birds – One that was our Thanksgiving bird and the other a reminder to stretch it out for the rest of the month. Only Daddy! I KNEW he could supply a means and I KNOW He is REAL!

I will NEVER forget what that afternoon did for both Tess and my Faith that November day, for we encountered the realness of God. Our Jehovah Jirah!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Laura Story : Blessings

The Counselor

Why is it some of us are so quick to run to get counsel where it could lead us astray?
Why is it other times we say, "No Way!" ?
Why is it?

Where do we turn?
What will be the response?
Who do we trust?

May I smile just like this into your face knowing at ALL TIMES you are with Me like a child leans in full trust! I LOVE YOU ABBA, I Love You!

I have a great time of refreshing to share, that came with refreshing for my soul this morning:

First allow me to pray for my loved ones and their day of TODAY when they read or don't read this Blessing over them. 'Abba, Father Our God, May you hear my prayer, know my heart and now that I have asked for forgiveness of my personal sins this morning hear with a heart to send forth a blessing on those who were at my table this morning and the families represented, may our prayers over the four and administration be heard and moved to your fulfillment and now; "May Kent, Mya, Tia, Faith, Emily and Hadassah say with confidence: I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken." Psalm 16:7-8 In your name I leave the Counselor to guide them, protect them and watch over them to fulfill your calling on their lives when and where they may be to send forth your glory, forevermore! Amen and Amen in Your powerful Name sweet Jesus I pray ~ Amen!'

The Lord is Gracious and will NEVER give ill counsel. But more wonderful and humanly uncomprehensive to grasp is that "THE COUNSELOR" lives with in us just as promised. We all desire to do something magnanimous, and magnificent but we rely on "ourselves" and not the creator. We turn to others first and forget what is meant to bring Him glory. Here is what was prayed over my dear ones at my kitchen table and now I include my entire family.

Let me share it with you that you may be blessed also! "Your statues are my delight; they are my counselors" Psalm 119:24 ""If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to BE with you forever- The Spirit of TRUTH. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you KNOW HIM, for he LIVES with you and will be IN YOU." John 14:15-17 "All this I have spoke while still with You. But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you." John 14:25-26 This is my Prayer for You as you walk in RIGHTEOUS COUNSEL ~ Be Blessed!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

curiously wondering?

Okay for those of you wondering we have been whittling away at getting things accomplished.

  • Project number one Down!
  • Now for Project number two . . . Here you go:
Okay so here is the BEFORE:

now it is time for me to vanish. What will it look like when I return?

Now awaiting the arrival of new beginnings: YES!

Upon my return a bit more than a half day into the project:

Still working away.

Paid for in stages by NOT ONCE BY CREDIT ~
Well Worth the WAIT.

Now to put aside to do project number three.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

excitement is in the air

Oh wow Ia m so very excited for what I have been waiting for a very long time!!!!

Laughter that returns

Isn't it amazing how much better we "feel" after laughing?
Than why don't we apply it more often?

Hadassah made Emmalee W. smile and return a wave just last week (3-10-11) and it was precious to see. Now not a week later she's not feeling so good but I so wanted to hear her laugh again. It made me reflect once again.

So many human beings "are so, so, so . . . . so ANGRY." (Enchanted) When we look around it is true. Angry, hard, well . . . enough of that talk. Let's be people who are different. Man oh man is it easy to allow that influence around you but we don't have to. We can choose to walk away. Yes, CHOOSE to walk away. Let the joy that really is in our heart come forth and LIVE! Be the one who sees the glass "half full" not the way most see it! Let's rejoice when others rejoice, be a shoulder in time of need and then let's take a serious look at the blessings that really are around us, for there are many! Truly there is.

Hadassah and I had a grand morning. First of all we didn't get to go to church because the Lord's creation is blooming and her little body is just not strong for some reason to take on all the new growth. Allergies, possibly. Two year molars, possibly. What ever the case. we laughed today. We giggled after her two year old reaction to stopping the water too soon. Then we cuddled until she drifted to sleep. Upon working through another two year reaction we giggled again letting her "JUMP ~ MOMMY ~ JUMP!~" on my bed. We opened the blinds allowed the sun to warm us and then we both jumped like Mexican Jumping Beans giggling and jumping. Of coarse she was ON the bed and I was on the floor. Then we giggled about the book we read together and then touching her tummy talking about "Horsieeeees, Mum, Mum, Mum, HORSES!!!" We loved the time together. We peeled and orange, and we even did dishes together. All with her not doing so well. She is so precious.

I loved hearing her giggle. Just loved it! May you can enjoy a day that seemed like it could be an "Eore, kind of day" but we made the best of being together and that is what life is all about. The Blessings and the laughter that gives great returns.

So make the Best of today, we don't know if we'll have another to live or not. Take the day and Cease the opportunity laying before us. I've made plenty of mistakes lately and quite frankly it is time to look heavenward and give Him all the glory!

So do you have Laughter that returns? GO have a good day and make your day be filled with a time to rejoice, for laughter is good medicine for the soul

God Gave Me Eyes

While reading to Hadassah this is what we came across while she chided with glee, "Reeeed mommyyyyyyy, please! Read, Mommy read it!" "READ IT, READ IT, PLEEEEESE READ it!" And here is what read:

"God gave me eyes
That I might see
The wonder of a blossoming tree;
My dolly's face,
My story book,
And how the various creatures look.

God gave me ears
That I may hear
The laugh of brooklets ringing clear,
My kitten's purr,
A violin,
And Mother when she calls me in.

God gave a tongue
That I might know
The flavor of all fruits that grow,
The taste of honey,
From the bee,
And good things mother cooks for me.

I thank you, God,
For making me
So that I hear and feel and see;
And since these good things
Come from You,
I'll use them as You want me to."
~ Olive Burt

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

My Daughter

Today is full of randomness of thought, rough draft grammar left in rough draft ramblings, my thoughts of coarse.

With All My heart I LOVE ALL FIVE of the Princesses the Lord has placed on this earth through our Family! I can not convey my deepest emotions. I have wondered about each of them from the moment of Discovery of their lives! I know that the Lord has said in one of my favorite Psalms 139 exactly how amazing they are. He created them with a Purpose. All of them are HIS MASTERPIECE, that has been granted for me to see.

I look back and reflect at how each time I saw their beautiful face as soon as I could they gave me great joy and still do. I just didn't know how we would be here today at this point and think, "where did the T - I - M - E go?" It was just "yesterday" it was revealed to me the life with in my womb. The prayers saturated over their lives from that moment on. The parenting; joy and questions and confessions of assistance from the Master, all for HIM. Yes All for HIM!

The reflection; quite B E A U T IFUL as the mirror reflects the creator. Wow, how did it come to pass that he allowed them to grace my life with theirs? Why did he trust me knowing that there would be learning curves and mistakes made while in my care? What was He granting me knowing rightfully they belong to HIM? Joy! Yes JOY! A mother's heart.

My Daughter
my mirror
my friend
my heart
~ Unknown

Yes there has been mistakes made along the way. Trying to be there for everything, Hugs, hand holding (and 1,2,3, squeezes), giving medications when ill, bandaging "owies", butterfly kisses, Eskimo kisses, swinging, giggling, laughing, quiet moments, tears. Hot cider, snow fun, summer camps (from VERY YOUNG ages), vacations, tanning from the sun kiss of the Lord. band, sports, chick flicks, BARNEY (I'll let you guess which one with whom), trips, Bird and the Bees (that was funny) and many "firsts". The list just goes on but it all equals L O V E that only a mommy knows. Would I do it all over again? "Yes sir Ya Betcha!" I'd do it ALL OVER AGAIN because they keep teaching me. JOY!

They are my Daughter and I have never regretted that. They are my mirror of where I need to rely on the LORD as the true reflection shows me Him and how HE NEEDS to be their reflection, My friend well that comes when He knows it is being developed from the moment they began and my heart . . . . well that is why it an emotional of the deepest kind.

Thank You Abba Father God. I guess I never really knew or understood "why" but THANK YOU, truly for allowing them to be picked out to be with me. I LOVE THEM ALL, even the one you have with you now. Thank you!

Mommy Loves You my Little WOMEN for you "ARE MY FAVORITE!!!"

Thursday, March 10, 2011

A failure?

So many times people think so many obscure ideas when they "hear" the word "FAILURE" and it made me ponder, contemplate, meditate and evaluate. Who? What? Where? When? Why? How?
Good Golly Miss Molly. Move!

Okay so we all have a fear of some type. That is reality. However, what we do and how we handle that failure is thought provoking. So much so that it makes fighters out of some. I have been so entrenched with my thoughts to the point of looking deep with in. To places that only the Lord is present. Praise Him for that one.

When we are babies, quite frankly with no remembrances vivid to our conscience, we seem to have "NO FEAR" and maybe just maybe that is where extreme sports selected their motto (or whom ever copy wrote the term).


Who? Maybe all of us really. We all deal with some type of a fear. Some very real yet for others it "feels" very real. The mind is a very powerful part of us.

What? Goodness me, there are phobias that would probably rock our boats in very tumultuous currents. Some that are so concentrated on that it enables us to the point of mere paralysis. YIKES.

Where? Physical. Emotional. Spiritual. With in us.

When? Maybe a location, a thing, a person (sounds like a noun). For many it is an action (verb) in the time continuum. Our past, present and anxiously in some of our futures.

Why? Experiential relations, emotion ties, spiritual battles.

How? Lies. Realities. To much credence to something not yet occurred.

Okay so why do I bring this up? FEARS can paralyse us, however, they don't have to. Face them. Pray through them. Dream your dreams. The majority of our fears NEVER even take place. Some are pasts clung to that inhabit us from achieving what God intended us to be. Fears however propel others to reach out and be stretched for rewards that far out weigh anything else. See God is so Amazing! I desire to work through some fears and see the rewards that the Lord has intended for me but I seemed to have "gotten in the way" because I was . . . "afraid" of _______ (fill in the blank). But Why? Maybe because we think too much.

Many of us don't want to be "a failure". So we don't take risks. Make decisions that push us through a situation. Some of us ask, "But Lord . . . . . . . . What IF I fail?" Well What if YOU/ I DON'T? Who cares what other "Unca Bubbas" tell us along our Journey, when they never even "tried". I am hear to tell you Dream your Dreams! Reach out and Achieve your childhood aspirations. TRY IT - (as long as they are moral, ethical and of integrity)!

Humanity since the beginning of time can be afraid of just about any and everything. However, individuals pressed forward and gave a way to exemplify perseverance: Thomas Edison never stopped. The Wright brothers never quit. Abraham Lincoln pressed forward. Mother Theresa gave with convictions. Steve Jobs and Steve Wozniak dreamed dreams and pressed on. Goodness The Savior, our Lord Jesus Christ gave unto his death, to give eternal life! What are we, am I afraid of? What? To care too much about what others might say? To fall down? To succeed? hummmmm. Dream. Reach. Stretch. Persevere. Strive forward is a key and look at your fears and FACE them head on. YOU are not a failure.

A Failure? I think not! Individuals who pushed through what others would be afraid to because they face - their FEARS! You and I are a MASTER PIECE with purpose. So go out there and BE everything the Good and Wonderful Lord intended for you to be ~ because YOU are NOT a failure! You are given life with a PURPOSE!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

It's on

Oh my goodness just a little over 48 hours, she soon will be HERE!
Let's all give a CHEER!!!!!

Monday, March 7, 2011


I can not rest
my soul is uneasy
quite contrary to disbelief

I can not rest
my soul is uneasy
The ache of a heart beat for those
yet left to reach

I can not rest
my soul is uneasy
desiring to reach the masses
is some way or form

I can not rest
mu soul is uneasy
for those who allow the
cares of this world to saturate
and lead them astray

I can not rest
my soul is uneasy
desire to return to the call
most will run from

I can not rest
for the master is calling
my head is heavy and so be my lids
yet my spirit is calming
and very alert

I can not rest
for it's time to pray
T - I - M - E is of the Essenes
to give Him my attention
and yielded to Thee

I can not rest
for He calls unto me
I enjoy our moments to sit and be
He & I sit alone
with one another
commune so tenderly

Some are leaving temporarily soon
but with great Joy for He gathers them all
those who yield full to His Call

I can fell time is soon calling to us
We are just passing to render His Love
One to another we shall and we must

Love is the key
His only request
Come unto me
I will give you the Best
Not easy but pleasing
Eternally true
Our hearts are created

Now I can rest
I know he that He Loves you and
died for us all
Won't we grab Him and
share him with others
and give them His all?

Now I can rest
I Love Him so much
Believe in Him daily
and trust with my might
There's nothing to fear
when we focus our sight
He calls you and Loves you
with Great Mercy and Grace
Repentance breaks strongholds
and Frees us to fly

Only the Master Understands
Truly Why

Won't you and I surrender and
stop making it hard
We all desire to
be Loved and feel Special
no doubt

He gave you and I life
So breathe with Him Now
Abba Father created you
with purpose and Joy
Please won't you respond
before it's to late
He's given you and I free will
the choice is in your hand
He'll never demand

Here on this earth
He gave with all that he Has
I Love You and I'll give you
this gift that is grand
Open it up
There's no trick or false measure
Honest and Truly
be humble and seek the real treasure
The cost is Priceless and given with Joy
That's why he stretched out his Arms
and he Cried IT IS FINISHED

Blessings to You
as Now I rest with a grin
and joy deep with in
Knowing someone is accepting the Savior
Following Him sincerely ~ NOW

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Who's teaching who?

March 1 brings a teaser for Spring

Baby with baby or is it really a fun day to
just live with Laughter and teasing?

The pose after telling Daddy what a KINDLE is
On His Birthday - March 2

What do want?

Ummmm . . . I know what I DREAM

My needs are met, and now to captivate the vision of working
and stretching for Out of the Box DREAMS are reaching them.

How about you?

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Each passing moment

With each passing moment the hour hand seems to crawl
the seconds lapse as the minute hand flies rather rapidly

The whisper of a breath that you are eager to hear for the first peep
now gone with but a memory clung to cherish in the recesses of the mind

The grip of the hold in a clutched tight chubby finger and hand
lost in the moment of what now is the past and alone

The giggle of a wee little voice
now grown to a young lady

The chats, dreams, one time verbiages
come and now gone by
minutes, hours, days, weeks, years were just here
laughed and replayed in the heartbeat and mind

long talks and giggles, car rides and wishes
dreams to fulfill with wide eyes of wonder
Hopes to come and visions to stretch through

long hugs to comfort and assure of the trust
so close for the moment and pushing and striving solo fly freely
praying for protection and longing for soaring
hoping she knows that you are there for her always and forever

Off for the flight and danger around
knowing she has be taught and learning still abounds
decisions made too quickly then with others confided
moments of ache as silence brings bittersweet sorrow
now for the mending of growth that really began in the marrow
knowing the flight hits the mark
no question but to know

He gave and he smiles for the princess is His
Where she fully is to be
Knowing that the circle complete

He knew, He gave,
He created His masterpiece
molded and yielded with permission from thee
grow to be free and come live to see

Now she must return fully
as He calls, "Now come unto Me"
My Bride I have awaited and now it is time
For I have come to get YOU

They loved you, they cared for You with all that they could
Give of their best as a Mother and Father could give
for these moments with glee
though not easily
Only Her FUTURE is

My child, He Loves you for all that your worth
His priceless Bride
We Love you so dearly
but He even more

He is whispering your name dear loved
I've come
We release you to Him
knowing He knows what is BEST
You'll be fully at rest

Time did fly oh so quickly
yet standing so still
We Love you Immensely
yes we truly Always will

For your are our daughter
Our mirror
Our heart.

Friday, March 4, 2011

with arms wide open

The precious moments in a day. I come home and Hadassah, runs screaming, "I MISSSSS YOU, I MISS YOU! I MISSSSS YOU!!!!" then she shouts aloud, Mommy I LUVVVVV YOU! I HODE YOU (hold) while reaching up her great stretched arms ready to be lifted up! Amazing.

How many of us run like that and sincerely mean it with the Heavenly Father? Is he our Number one thought? Our running captivated attention? Where will it lead us? Are our arms open so wide that it hurts?


What do we want?

How bad?

What will drive us to PLEASE ONLY THE FATHER?

Are we truly willing to leave everything for HIM? If he were to ask us to RIGHT NOW?

Does it ache every member of our body to be away from Him?

Are my arms (your arms) stretched wide open as well as extended so far out that it hurts awaiting to "HODE YOU"?

Thanks for one of many lessons late, precious Hadassah Rose! I await with my arms wide open to Love You, and HOLD you for all that I have left with in me. Love you little Princess, your Marmey

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

"Danny and Annie" from StoryCorps

Today is Kent's birthday and then I read this from sweet Amy B.'s sight so I thought I would repost it. Amazing story.

Enjoy. I did.

Sweet is the price of Prayer

So many times I have grown to love the power of Prayer. To wonder why the good Lord allows us to have a picture window view of His Majesty. As I was working just the other night, an appointment fell through but it allowed me an opportunity to surprise visit and stop by to visit with a dear family! So precious are they that it brought joy to be greeted with a hug.

The sweet family I visited . . . Laurel Davidson and her precious family. Special because they were there when we brought our first born home. Laurel was adorned with the presence of Christ and the power of prayer that surrounded their home from cards, pictures, quilts made by very special people whom you know their hands were praying through each stitch, etc. When the door was opened the Labradors' greeted me warmly. The visit with Gordie and Sue warmed my heart. To fellowship personally with Laurel gave me a smile. The visit was intended to pray with her, listen to her and yet while her body is fighting this awful disease - CANCER her spirits were high, and questions of my family made me humble. Her nails painted so pristine, her smile warm. Her conversation imprinted on my heart forever. Praise the Lord, Laurel has accepted the Lord as her Savior. Thank You Laurel for how precious the visit was. Thank You Gordie, Sue, Amy (her sister), Christian (her son) and Sues' sister for how peaceful your hearts are by allowing me to stop in and smell the sweetness of aroma in Christs presence. May the Lord allow these few days left on this side of heaven to be Joyous.

My prayers still remain, God is GOOD ALL the Time, even when it doesn't make sense on this side of Heaven. The joy, through this fight is that Laurel accepted the Savior as hers personally; in this fight and time is fleeting but is special. The time here will be untied with Laurel's healing perfectly when we all return "home".

I LOVE YOU Davidson's' and will continue to pray for comfort and peace for everyone, especially for Laurel's comfort. For sweet is the price of prayer and Better IS ONE DAY in His courts than a thousand elsewhere.