Thursday, December 29, 2011

Please make yourself comfortable

The Valet very Pretty and a Lady, Opened the door and ushered the unassuming couple in. Then It all began with the friendly greeting,"Welcome to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Bistro! The wait is going to be just a little while, Please make yourself comfortable, have a seat and enjoy a short film for your entertainment." The ambiance of the atmosphere absolutely soothing and breath taking, they smiled, wondered and gentle sat down.

Their seating very calming and comfortable beyond compare. The Christmas decor, gentle to the eyes and the music soft, a "KENNY G. - White Christmas, in the background" sang out to them while the twinkle in his eyes as they gazed at one another spoke "surprise" because neither of them knew exactly "who" was surprising who. (sigh) Both of them taken off guard, but drifted into a dream.
The aroma's tantalizing and teasing them of what lay ahead. The Christmas lights on the tree glimmered, sparkled and almost whispered - began singing. The viewing entertainment a Christmas classic, from their past.

The Hostess Very striking to the eye, very pleasant and warm to the couple. Very professional yet welcoming. Her voice soft. The second, a beautiful server, asked if the couple would like anything while they waited. The film drew them away. They held hands gently, their eyes caught one another, and they smiled. The savory seasons wafted about the Bistro. The comfy seating relaxed their tense muscles and the staff eased their minds. The Hostess took them back to their elegant fine table laced in Red and Cream and an appeasing candle flame drew them in to a subdued warmth. As they were seated off to the tranquilized romantic corner, they both melted in one an others gaze. The couples smiles teased one another as they both grinned and locked their eyes on one another passing through the years of time spent together. As they both gazed through the menu a gentle tear escaped her eye, then every so slowly rolled trying to hide quickly from the staff.

His eyes gave her chills of joy knowing they were together as he walked her to her seat and gently guided her to the table. His saunter still taking her breath away as he took his chair. The moment to dulcify the evening and their souls reached a moment of speechless wonder - joined through True Love, they know commitment to one another is real. So real they almost forgot those about them. The first waitresses came, took the drink orders and floated away with a very inviting grin. The curly amber haired server smiled as the soft banged brunette server worked as one with her almost as if they were one. Quickly they brought the chilled Caesar dinner salad and steamy cheesy garlic bread.

They couple of twenty four years union in marriage became one mind, one heart, one Love. The entire staff at "The _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Bistro" mitigated the worries of the world. Much like one slipping into a Calgon Bath. He looked up, caught her gaze and they both cried. The Steamy Homemade House Lasagna served with care; Complements to the Chef, as his appearance to offer his Finest Red and White "Wine" (Sparkling ;-) Grape style). Permissimo!!! Their mouths watered with every bite as they reminisced every memory past and now the one lived as a wonderful "Present"!

The last lovely server brought A Vanilla dessert speckled with Chocolate treats and the Chef put a finalizing touch with a "Chocolate Ritz" covered treat! Perfect! The evening absolutely PERFECT.

Then it happened. The cutest wee little server presented him with a grin, walked over to her and gave her a gift. "Fank You for coming! This is for YOU!" . .. "CAN I HEP YOU?!!" We all smiled and then we opened the gifts after our dessert.

Happy Twenty fourth Anniversary!!!

Valet/Dessert Server ~Mya
Hostess/ ~Tia
Server/order ~ Emily
Server/ ~ Hot meal Faith
Chef/ ~ Jordan (Son -In - Love)
Server/ Gift bearer ~ Hadassah

"Wine" ~ Sparkling Grape Juice ;-)

The Finest Bistro In History!

A Peek - a - Boo Into Our Memory of a Lifetime:

Sneaky, Sneaky - Shopping groceries, gifts, "fake shopping" to detour, doc appointments to delay, friends in Mall delay unexpected but warmly accepted!

Here is a peak! Here are the pics

Monday, December 26, 2011

Merry Christmas

I just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year!
Okay so there is so much to share and so much to be excited about. The wild thing is that we didn't get Christmas cards out this year. So be looking for them to come after this week since we have a moment to be thankful and celebrate with our entire family here very soon.

The girls picture will be uploaded soon. ;0)

Love always, our family!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

The shepherd

There is a shepherd who means the world to me.

He anoints my head with oil when necessary
His staff comforts me
His hand guides me
His voice soothes me
His love fulfills me
His patience astounds me
His discipline completes me
His eyes melt me
His feet are quick to defend me
His staff keeps me from harm

There is a shepherd that loves me
His words go noticed
His arms surround me
His leading stretches me

He is the only voice I know I can ALWAYS trust
He carries me when I hurt
He holds me when I am afriad
He shields me from evil
He looks out for my well being
He is worth dying for
for he risks it all on my behalf

His love is unending
His ways are becoming my ways
I love this shepherd with all that I am
He fills me with joy
He holds me together
I call him - Jehovah Jirah -

The LORD, Jesus Christ, The Holy Spirit your are my great shepherd, I shall not or need not want!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


The soil to those who are Khmer is called home. For those who step into their shoes . . . life usually is NEVER the same. From expecting up to the "potential" of 150 children, receiving a phone call at the FREEDOM SALON that we needed to come soon because the children were waiting. We stepped into about 350 possibly 400 children who filled the alley leading to the RAPHA HOUSE KIDS CLUB location. WOW!!! Amazing. We now sponsor _._. in Brown top.

As it was time to get the day started, David one of the Social Workers, and "T", gave the word and IMMEDIATELY all - YES ALL THE CHILDREN - listened and got into lines. I was so amazed at their attention and Obedience that I tried to get a picture off as they were forming their lines. However, by the time I did they were already beginning their day in full order!
When we were all dismissed I was humbled to get to talk with one of many but a very SPECIAL woman named "_". This is their home property where her husband, she and her children make a significant difference in their Islamic saturated area to share the LOVE of Jesus Christ! I was imploring and inquiring her to find out of the precious girl on my right side's name. She melted my heart. From the moment she came over to me when we first arrived until we left late that night. I knew that the Lord, through the Holy Spirit was prompting to take a huge step of faith to sponsor and older child.
Not until later and having someone (the girl in the white) go and find her and bring her back so that we could take pictures together. I found out that she was NOT sponsored. She Was the First one I knew and I prayed for the Lord to lead to just one more to sponsor and it was the girl from with in my random pictures that is pictured in first photo. This sponsor ship means, meals, a uniform to go to school, and the ability to come to Kids Club and not be at a very huge risk to be trafficked and exploited! The smile of the girl when she realized the reason for "finding" her was to let her know that she was now a sponsored child. Her literal sister happened to be the one who went to find her and bring her back. They both hung around calling me "Mum" and telling me I LOVE YOU - repeatedly holding my arms, hands, and hugging me until we literally left that night!

Now here is my Challenge to YOU . . .
On the left side of the Picture, which Randy Wheeler took the week before we arrived, are
the children who are NOT SPONSORED. They received something to show that they to
are valued, while the ones with the back packs are the ones who are already sponsored.

Amazingly since our return in Late October they went from having around 140 sponsorships to have right now today 297 sponsored children.
So they are thrilled to say the desire is to "find" just three more to have 300 BEFORE Christmas.

Can we together sponsor 53 children and exceed 300?

Can we think "OUT OF THE BOX" and
Ephesians 3:20 - Well What do WE THINK?
Are WE up to the CHALLENGE?
Here is the quote from the Wheelers - the RAPHA HOUSE KIDS CLUB
The haves - and the have nots. The kids on the right are a small portion of the "sponsored" kids with their nice backpacks filled with school supplies and uniforms. The kids on the left are the kids not yet sponsored and their bags with a few pencils and comic books. My heart breaks for them. They were happy to get their goodies but I could see some of them looking longingly at the other kids and wishing they could go to school as well. In a little over a year we've managed to find sponsors for 148 children. There were twice that many today who are waiting. Please pray that they'll all be sponsored soon.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Birthday wishes

"But the LORD said to Samuel, 'Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things human beings look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the HEART!" I Samuel 16:7

The amazing walk of one of our Princesses is so precious! I look at her and her smile warms a room. She has always had a knack for memorization and a love for puzzles. But her heart is huge. Every day not matter what she always gives warm fuzzies by earnestly seeking a genuine love to hear about the families day. Every meal we sit together, and after we serve out and after our prayer time, she smiles and ALWAYS asks, "So, how was your day _____?" while she sits and LISTENS intently. If by chance we let down our proverbial "hair" she tries to move on and make a smooth and positive transition.

She has beautiful curly hair that everyone always asks, "Is that naturally curly?" And not until last year did she begin to appreciate it. I believe when the commercials came out with Troy Polamalu and individuals shared their like of her brown curly locks which to them they admired, we enjoyed the moment since we hadn't seen them yet, then we all had our laughs when we did.

Her laugh . . . is contagious! Her joy is fun! Her heart is amazing! I always try to make each Princess know that they are my LOVE! MY FAVORITE DAUGHTER (and we put in our special family insert phrase that we ALL HEAR and LOVE to KNOW in our HOME) and it makes them realize that They are LOVED DEARLY because they are UNIQUE and they ARE A MASTERPIECE!

So Here is to sweet Sweet PRINCESS - Happy HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YOU!!! YOU WERE RIGHT ON TIME! On your first Christmas Day, when you were only days old; Nana & Papa LOVED ON YOU with such tender grandmotherly and grandpa Love and Care! Your Sisters and Brazilian Sister were overjoyed at the gift of your life as well! Daddy and I couldn't have been more excited for you. For when we found out you were a part of our LIFE, I SCREAMED with such excitement that the nurse and doctor inquired, "Oh . . . Is this your first child?" To which I replied, "No, this baby is our third!" and they smiled then both said, "We don't think we have ever seen some one THAT EXCITED for their third baby! CONGRATULATIONS!!!" To which I sang and cried all the way home, so excited to share the News with your daddy (we didn't have a cell phone back then) ;0) since I was going in for another "possibility" only to discover the reason it was taking place was because we were going to be seeing your wonderful face due on our TENTH YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!

Here you are ~ Wonderful and so caring. Never change Princess -NEVER, and keep remembering to "SHINE FOR JESUS!!"

Friday, December 9, 2011

Christmas broken aching heart

Hi Sister 1,2,&3,
I received this message about your sponsored girls:
_ _ _, _ _ _, and _ _ _ are sisters. This family very poor, these kids are help family to do some work to make money. They don’t have house they live at hospital the place that they can live for free. However this family parent don’t have work. They can do what people asking them to do, by laundry, take care baby for other family, this work not make much money. And at night time or day time without school all this kid do recycle stuff not good for them to walk around and do that but this time we was talking with family asking them we may can help more rice and food but we don’t want all these 3 girls do recycle because not safe. However this good: study hard, been good at school. Come to kid’s club every time and she learn how to dance at Christmas time too.

This (above) was the letter response i recently received about the girl I just recently sponsored and her sisters (literally). Thank You Abba, Father-God for bringing this to my attention. I Love You "C" for sharing with me and the recently sponsored sisters care providers, Sincerely - from the bottom of my aching heart.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Wow - Do You Hear the what of I am hearing?

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more that all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, " -NIV or "God can do anything, you know - far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your WILDEST DREAMS! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us." The Message : Ephesians 3:20

NWMO FCA "information without inspiration provides direction without motivation, inspiration without information provides motivation without direction" - Unknown

I do not know what your ear is telling you, or even your heart for that matter. I have so much on my mind it just blows me away. Like a child who earnestly and incessantly says, "why?" "But WHY?" How about the moments that the silence is so very quiet that it SCREAMS OUT TO your soul? Yes and what about the moments of the earth's creation unable to cease from what the bowls desire to exclaim?

Do You and Can you hear it? Oh listen to that. It is AWEmazing. The child (NOT FETUS) in the womb who is so eager to share the wonders of the creator from the

moment of conception. Or the parents so thrilled to finally get to see what HE, the I AM already knows from before time. Or the cries of a baby to convey the vocabulary of the heart. The wonder of the ear to hear as He created us to hear.

Are we, are YOU, am I really lending a very attentive ear to give way to the voice of the whisper? Can you clearly hear? Are we LISTENING?! Really listening?

When I was in preschool, I remember going to my first Christmas Musical put on by the Senior High School just on the next block and the song, "Do You hear what I

Hear?" was sung with an amazing vocals! It still gives me goosebumps. I was in AWE, for it allowed me to revisit that wonder and smile. I was in utter amazement of the thought of listening? Then recently one of my favorite films: August Rush and the amazing dipictions through sound barriers and of being allowed to hear. To have ears that could and can still distinguish the thoughts that are going on while listening to the stupendous thrills surrounding us.

I began to listen. Sounds such as the giggle from a baby, the gurgle of mouth wash, the sound of a tear falling from one needing tender care, or the voice from a bubbling Brook flowing down a stream in the Rockies, the song sung from one with all their enriched being, the voice of a preacher, the buzz of the bee, the conversation of the insects with the season of Spring. How about the birds chirping their own melodious tunes, the rapid speed of the wings of the humming bird, the bark of a loyal dog, the meow of a cat. the song of a girl across the world asking you if she can call you "MUM" and consider you to be one who will advocate for her as a

mother soothing her child, the laughter of a daddy while giving advise.

Do You hear with the wonder of "what" I am hearing?

I am so thankful for the ability to still hear, even though it is rapidly diminishing - I sing praise and Glorify the Lord for the ability to still listen and hear.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Ahhhhh December

Sweet, Sweet December here we are again. You never cease to Amaze me. The Joy you provide. The sorrow held at bay. There are five wonderful women; Amy S. (locally),Kelsey I. (out of town) and Stephanie (out of town), Julia G. (out of state) and two new mommies announced from our body of Christ Lyndsey and Sierra, I know right now who carry a child with in their womb. It so reminds me that just a few years ago we awaited with excitement that which was born to us around Christ's Celebrated birth ~ the last child that last joined our family. My life and first breath out of my mothers' womb came to be - all in December. Many Christmases, New Years Eve's and many many births in my family - Ahhh December, the exquisite Joy, like a snow flake Big and uniquely all it's own. That is like the adventures I have had all in December.

Ahhh December I love the time of the year. Why, because LOVE

PREVAILS in so many ways. The quote I heard in the past is so true, "I just wanna be LOVED, is that so wrong?" - unknown (really I forgot who said it, however it is only right to properly give credit where credit is due). No it is not wrong to want to be LOVED. Quite Frankly, December brings that out in MOST individuals for they begin to think of Others and not themselves. The joy of giving, the joy of forgiving, the joy of just LOVING come through the month of December!

Ahhh December. On my birthday you, oh Abba, allowed a day that SNOWED in my native growing up soil. The laughter of my brother and the voice of my dad gave me joy. A sweet text from on of my Sister in Loves brought the joy through a soft tear all in December. My Daughters (all of them!!!) have giving me many years of JOY through the month of December and now my new Son in Love shares in the wonder of December.

Ahhh December, I enjoy that I am married to the LOVE OF MY LIFE ~ to the only man I have EVER dated, and carried all of my "firsts" with and there will never be another. And this year the Lord of All is allowing us another anniversary all in DECEMBER.
Ahhh December. Thirty one glorious days to just say THANK YOU for the evidence of LOVE! To grow up in a mountainous area and call it home, and to experience the grandeur of Purple Mountains Majesty. To discover the Christ as my Personal Savior and to call upon him from Christmas Caroling - all in December.

I LOVE DECEMBER. The Laughter, the CHRISTmas Joy, the Magnificent Proclamation, the Wonder of the Birth of the Christ Child - all remembered through DECEMBER! From my first Breath, to a nuptial Kiss, a commitment of LOVE - during a BLIZZARD, vows declared, births granted, children carried, songs sung, hot chocolate, Christmas Carols and many traditions - all in December.

Ahhh December. Family - the importance of FAMILY - and now I get to experience my first Christmas with our Son-in-Love to be. Ahhh December.

I will rejoice and Thank You dear Lord for what I do NOT deserved - all in DECEMBER a time to LOVE!

Philippians 4:19

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Thanksgiving Thankfulness

Thanksgiving was wonderful!

Family are wonderful ALL THE TIME! I love the moment to be truly Thankful for everything that the Lord has granted over the last year. It all makes me so very appreciative that at all cost - family is very special. And one of the added joys is a txt received from one of our special and loved nephews. " :) Awe thanks :) You have a great thanks giving spending it with all your girls love you."

He continually reminds me of how I am Thankful for ALL of my Family! Blessings to you sir and All of my entire Family!

This year Princess One was able to come home and it was wonderful to have all of our Princesses home together and get to spend it with family. Although I did truly miss our Prince who will soon and very soon begin to be a part of our family, ;-) !

Hearing the girls laugh and giggle and just enjoy one another gave my heart great pleasure. Joy of realizing that there is so much to be grateful for is a moment to relish the time to be able to know how blessed we truly are.

So I count it all joy to say THANK YOU to the the Lord for what he has allowed me to be given so that through him Love Lives brightly.

Saturday, November 19, 2011


A look from one
of the
Wonder of the Worlds
Don't be afraid to Dream

The little girl is running at lightening speed, Her laughter from with in bubbles over and over and her imagination runs wild. The tall grass tickles her limbs beyond control and she begins to enter into another world. It is amazing.

What is she "gathering wool" about?
Does she see visions?
Does she dream dreams?
Does she live them in her heart to one day live them out?

She plays to the imagination that one day, yes one day, she will live the visions and dreams to completion.

Keep Dreaming.
Keep Reaching.
Step out in Faith.
Don't be afraid to take the Step and Jump into your Dreams.
You'll never "wonder" about the "IF" when at least you take the step and Jump in Faith.


You have been CALLED by HIM so "GO!"

Don't let ANYONE take that Dream away.

I LOVE YOU. ;-) "GO"

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Seeker, who is it really?

I love how many scriptures there are on him seeking, and then allowing us the choice to select to seek him back out of FREEWILL! Jeremiah 33:3 has been one verse that has been carrying me for some time now and I am so glad that it has brought me the joy of HIM! I know that everything else is futile really.

All I have desired after discovering that I was going to be in ministry answering his call on my life was to share Jesus with those He would bring into my life. I hungered to know him since I was almost finished with my teens. When I met a youth group on an outing I knew, "I WANT WHAT THEY HAVE - because they ARE DIFFERENT." Where there obstacles? Yes. However, the rewards of eternal ramifications far out weigh the "feelings" of trying to discover "something" that is fleeting and dead.

My desire than became to pray for loved ones to come to know him. To see him. To far surpass my desires for him. I just desired for them all to choose him like he has chosen us to answer. My heart bleeds for my children to always follow HIM! Always put HIM FIRST! To die for HIM! I LOVE THEM SO and those he keeps bringing into my path. I at times have held back and for that I am learning to not with hold his gift from anyone. I am realizing how much He has given me and there is much to share. To pray for and through. I LOVE JESUS CHRIST so much that after placing my feet on foreign soil in October, my life is so different. My heart more tender than it has ever been. As I have recently learned in the past few weeks, If you'll forgive my very loose translation point - "You in America believe in God, but we in ??? (sorry I forgot where I heard this, so I don't want to misquote the location) DEPEND on GOD!" -UNKNOWN

So I inquire of you, Who is it that really depends on Jesus Christ, God's son through the guiding of the Holy Spirit to follow and seek Him back with ALL their heart? Has he sought you out already? And the answer? Therefore - (may I share) However, When we seek HIM and HIM ALONE we receive FULL SATISFACTION! I know with out a doubt he has called me since i was very very young. As I look back I have been searching him out. NOW I DESIRE HIM to be my ALL! He is coming and I am running to find him and bring as many with me as possible. I only pray that they choose him and chase him with out stopping and hold on tight to bring them to LOVE him out of serving with true passion to give love in a way that can never be reciprocated - other than to serve others!
The questions that some ask is who is the Seeker? I believe that we are all people who seek for something or maybe even someone but the one who matters above all else is. DRUM ROLL . . . .. . . . . . God- Jehovah, I AM! He has had you and me on his mind since before time! That is right. And soon, very, very soon He is coming! Coming to gather those who have listened and responded to his seeking.

"Yet a time IS COMING and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks." John 4:23

Thursday, November 10, 2011

2 + 5 = 5 + 2 or is it 2+5 = 2+5

5 + 2

With the adventure of today I realized that I absolutely just LOVE the moments of now. The princesses of my life are a mirror. Let me explain. I LOVE the womb blessings that the LORD has bestowed upon us.
or is it
2 + 5

I LOVE the ones the Lord has allowed us (2) to birth (5)
and now there are seven to love from Cambodia (5) from safe home and (2) from Prevention homes

I just want them to know I am praying my one of my favorites over them ALL
Jeremiah 33:3
Philippians 4:8
Ephesians 3:20
knowing He has created them from the BEGINNING
Psalm 139!

They both come to a sum of SEVEN - Thank You Jesus!

I LOVE you ALL until the day I breath no longer on this side of HEAVEN!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Shane & Shane: The One You Need

A dear friend of mine revealed this to me via the written blog - For that I am so thankful because their child is precious and it makes me THANKFUL for ours naturally and now in CAMBODIA!

Blessings to ALL!

Jeremiah 33:3 and 11b

Saturday, November 5, 2011

wisdom from a child ;-)

Ramblings of the enjoyment called "Today" a day of Joy. The wisdom of the simple pleasure in things that matter - life. Only a Life in Jesus can give what today reminded me of!

Through my ramblings let me try and just be unedited - me.
The moments to be on two dates in less than twenty four hours = a sweet autumn weekend. The joy of these moments have be freeing. We were able to laugh, walk, go out to eat and just enjoy one another company over an appetizer, sit with hot chocolate while enjoying a football game together, which they won; laugh with the girls when we returned home.
Only to have a full day of the same! Yes date number two - WONDERFUL! More laughs, quiet walks, a nice stake dinner after fall browsing and shopping with princess number five and watching her giggle just to be with us. A bright red balloon tied to her wee little wrists and to be so excited to have new pajamas. :-) Simple pleasures today. But my favorite? Just being with him. Only to be confident that we were hearing one another like the years have given us. JOY!

We didn't need to spend money. We just enjoyed the night and day together. I enjoyed watching him smile over the simpleness to let him know that we could go to a football game and just enjoy the atmosphere. He lit up! He enjoyed the idea but our company - Jesus Christ in the simple pleasure. Also today was the same. Just talk, walk, hold one another hand be quiet and comfortable with knowing we have and continue to share a lot together.
We've grown older but that is okay. We've experience a lot together and that is why we are here - LOVE from above. Ministry - wow! Life in marriage, to the love of my life - unending. Persevere. Remain Faithful. Believe. Trust. Take up your cross. Revival. Prepare for the Harvest. Endurance. Love - true agape love! Love that has given us five beautiful Princesses and Princess Hadassah made us smile all day long today.

Allowing us to remember every time all five of them have brought us the same pleasures! Joy through Love and this wisdom they have enlighten us with! She reminded me of all five of them. And now the new seven of them that are connected forever to them! Lord Thank you so much for Kent and all the children you have given me to learn from and now the seven others in another land to connect to these here in our home. I am Blessed and wisdom was with us today Thank You, Abba, Father, God - for I know I have lost a lot here on earth but In YOU we are RICH beyond measure. This little one showed us your wisdom for that I am so humbled.
Yes today and all of yesterday has been sweet and when we sat at our lunch date and our 'server' returned to take our order a precious little princess said, "who's that?" "Taylor" "Sheeee's Perty!" and a grin of approval and a giggle as she sat with us and said, "that's okay!" and she began to "dance" in her seat but with manners.

Today made me think of the road we have traveled with one another for over the last twenty six years and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Today - I just enjoyed the simple pleasures and the wisdom received through a god fearing man and a child and her child like faith with the creation crying out to the Master - Salvation awaits all that choose to pluck it's fruit that lasts for all eternity! Riches of the world mean nothing, when left hurt and all you have is Jesus to cling to you can endure. Love is the greatest of these. Today I know I am loved and can love because he has granted forgiveness to me when I don't deserve it. Thank you Abba for wisdom and how you allowed me to see you through the last forty eight hours.

"Blessed is the man who finds wisdom, the man who gains understanding, for she is more profitable than silver and yields better returns than gold. She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her. Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are reaches and honor. her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace. She is a tee of life to those who embrace her: those who lay hold of her will be blessed." Proverbs3:13-18 NIV

Thursday, November 3, 2011

The wonder of it all

"Whether you eat or drink or WHATEVER you do, do it ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD!"
Cor. 10:

I am amazed at so many things. Last night I had a wonderful guest stop by our home. One that wanted to share, ask questions about Cambodia, the "whys?" and watch Baht.

It still chokes me up with everything. I think about how each time one of our Princesses were born it made me think of all the things layed before them in their future. How the moment we found out that LIFE existed from conception the wonder and the desire to pray for their purity and for the men that would come into their lives to be pure as well. The years, and years of endless prayer.

As their mommy my desires were for them to Love God, Follow Jesus Christ and accept the invitation for eternal life through Salvation with Yahweh. To listen to the calling of the Holy Spirit and to follow His counsel all their days designed here on earth. For them to Love like he lived out love. To be protected from all evil and harm. It was the burden of my soul, my heart, my desire for the girls to live with a peace knowing that they are covered with the Blood of Jesus because they choose to follow. As their mommy my heart ache was for them to be holy as he is holy! That men would not harm them.

Little did I know that what took three years and four months to have an answer would change me for the rest of my life. I remember sitting and crying with one very special lady long ago over a life lost. A life that from that point I knew would be with Jesus but it still hurt because I would never see that precious face. That is how it is once again, the ache but now there are faces and names connected to the faces. Ones that mean a lot. Princesses as precious as our five Princesses that when I look into their face I also see them.

Someone needs to pray for them. Someone needs to be their voice. Someone = my heart felt prayer to be their intercessor along with interceding for M, T, F, E, HR with Passionate Agape Love and stand in the gap.

The wonder of it all for me is to know that the Holy Spirit knows my pleas. My desires. My dreams. And I believe with all my heart he hears and is answering these prayers for these precious gems called his children!

I thank You Lord Jesus for the chance that all the girls have to hear about Jesus Christ and His LOVE and they now have a treasure to accept your gift. The wonder? Not at all a question but now I know you are true and faithful and are healing. Thank You for the joy of life and allowing me to Love our girls. To be able to pray on their behalf and now there are those that are connect to their lives through the same spirit because now they are loved with deep compassion.

In Jesus Name - be with them who are yet to come. Be with them that are healing right now. Be with them who are with them. Just continue to BE! Amen and Amen!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

The walk of a Princess

"Praise the LORD. Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty heavens. Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for his surpassing greatness. Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the harp and lyre, praise him with tambourine and dancing, praise him with the strings and flute, praise him with the clash of cymbals, praise him with resounding cymbals. Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD. " Psalm 150

How Great is Our God - Chris Tomlin
She walks down the hall way
pitter, patter
a smile cascades from ear to ear

The sound of joy through a giggle
Dress up
finding high heels

quiet . . . silence
a sigh
she reappears
hair bundled in a doo

She appears
she sighs
she walks ever so precious with each step
she looks earnestly up into his eyes - searching 'the king' for his approval
He smiles, with an extension of a gentleman's hand
'the queen' pauses with a gentle tear
they smile with the eyes of wonder

The Princess gleams
puts up her parasol
walks away on cloud nine
to be able to leave the castle and then enjoy the evening

Princess five . . . .
the days of her joy begin

Princess four . . .
so sweet and excited

Princess three . . .
ideals all her own

Princess two . . .
Beauty that is ready to fly soon, very soon to arms of interest

Princess one . . .
Flying and soon very soon
ready to be with the one called her Prince
The Kingdom belongs to Him and Him alone. However, now the earthly king . . . shines with a joy that comes from the humble gifts and honor of watching them Gleam and Glow with Joy of the Beauty from with in that was there from the beginning; Psalm 139. The queen also knows it is only T - I - M - E and all five will reside in their own kingdoms. The beauty of bitter sweetness - they are pleased and filled with joy.

Now seven other Princesses are being prayed for to be a radiant bride one day as well in a foreign land. That their Prince will honor them just like those here. God is so Good ALL THE TIME!
A True Love Story - Redemption through Jesus Christ and Rapha House

""He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; he seats them with princes, with the princes of their people. He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord!" Psalm 113
Bride and Groom at Angkor Waht October 18, 2011

Monday, October 31, 2011

Speaking or not speaking both are loud

"Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy." Proverbs 31:8-9 "

Through we can be that voice!

"Lord, bring me five for five and two for two!" to represent our family -
He answered !!!! Seven came forward and there is now connection.
. . . If Anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceiveshimself and his religion is worthless. Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this; to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." James 1:26-27

Last night the second wave of tears gently fell. Fell for the faces and names forever engraved upon my heart, my memory, my soul. Even as they asked me to remember me by name I too will remember them by NAME and FACE. With Joy there are seven precious PRINCESS I have and will continue to pray for DAILY by name!!!
Whether or not I speak continually, I will live as their advocate with PASSION
I will forever Love them like my own and remember that they asked me to be able to call me "MUM!" It is humbling and YES most definitely Yes, they can call me and I will PRAY for their FREEDOM!
We are bound by Khamitasitic LOVE grounded in AGAPE!!!!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Singapore secret prayer ;-)

When is Singapore International on Oct 12, someone felt the need to keep my Creative Memory sports pull over jacket, with precious goodies in my pocket and a prescription. However, it is just something material. In the whole outlook now the royal blue one hanging in this picture, is the one I am praying through and for you with true joy. The prayer is saturated for warmth of your heart and soul and your physical body. I forgive you truly. For in the scheme of everything . . . it is for you - so that now I may earnestly be connected to you and pray for your salvation. That you may come to receive and have the best life ever for all eternity!I have been praying for that YOU ever since that early morning. That you may come to the Savior to be free and that your entire family; they all may come to know the Savior of the world Jesus Christ and know that HE LOVES YOU! And now we have a connection spiritually so that I may lovingly keep your heart and soul lifted before him.

Yours truly - your sister in Jesus Christ!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Designed by the Master Designer

Each little one is so precious. A purpose designed by the Master Himself
and when one desires to leave them as ashes He grants another to place His crown
to reveal they are His PRINCESS, His Bride - From ashes to HIS CROWNED BEAUTY!

"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is one me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, . . . and provide for those who grieve in Zion-to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, . . . They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor." Isaiah 61:1 & 3

So many times we as human beings are filled with a bit of a broken life however with the Lord we are arrayed in His splendor. We may feel like we have to walk through the mire at times, but you are beautiful! Maybe one reading this is brokenhearted, or is a captive to anger, or a deep thought process. There may be even those who feel hopeless and alone. Please understand the Savior has a hope for you. A hope that will sustain in a way that is incomprehensible to most because it just doesn't make sense. It is the gift of Salvation. A Free gift for you and me that cost one very Loving God his everything: His Son!
For those who look to "see" only the beauty of of their desired perfection we forget that our lives may just seem like broken pieces and not whole and we may think, "how can this possibly be beautiful?" But our lives filled with what may seem like a pile of burnt ashes is really a relic, one of a crown of beauty that is placed on our head to display His splendor in our lives! You my friend, such as I have recently experienced, are not a mistake. Regardless of what life may have been lived by the choices we have made; or other choices may have made by others that can affect our life; both may leave a blemish of some kind on our life however, it is part of our character building. How?

How will we handle it? How will we reflect the design of the master creator? All I know is that after working with a wonderful Non for profit organization- Rapha House, I witnessed one beautiful redemption, a series of healing and a love story ~ all of these were taking place in a the darkest of spiritual warfare. A story one after another of true love. True fulfilled redemption. We are all broken pieces but in the heap of ashes "we are bestowed a crown of beauty , the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair!" like Isaiah 61:3 reveals. Let Him grab your hand, show his Love for you like a "Mum" who desires to lavish Love upon a child left for broken. He Loves you that much! And through the Love of Jesus Christ, we are the hands of the master himself for one another.
You are designed with intent. You are designed with a beauty from deep with in from the master designer himself ~ because you are of Wonderful Value! You are BEAUTIFUL!

pictures by Randy Wheeler

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

"Songkum" and Rapha House | Rapha House

This is one of the girls I worshipped with on Sunday October 16, 2011
(Sat. night back home 12 hours behind CST)

Forever Changed

Meeting thirteen individuals in Texas. In route for over thirty hours. The heart has forever been changed. Now I may understand what David Livingston meant!!!

"But do not forget this one thing, dear friend: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day." II Peter 3:8

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

A time to reflect

Three of these four girls are sponsored monthly! Won't you
consider to be the other ones' sponsor?
Which prevents them or a family member from being a victim of Human trafficking

When thinking about how to put it all into mere words, it seems unfathomable. However, when one writes from the heart how can the flow of emotion not be shared by the wonders lived in a different but very real culture.

I came back forever different! Along with thirteen other individuals! I can not begin to try to even explain fully what transformed; other than to share that God is AMAZING in his Grace and Mercy. That He still gives opportunities for his creation to choose HIM.

Flying for such a long period of time and leaving on October 10, 2011 to arrive fifty one + hours later at the destination of ministry. With absolutely no expectations or preconceived ideas my heart and eyes took in everything. Every stop made there was prayer literally laid before me. From meeting for the first time: the TEAM that would be my living family over the next few weeks, getting to the location terminal and gate with only one phone number in hand, there was no anxiousness but only peace. When I met them - again PEACE!

The peace of the Holy Spirit. The lessons of learning forgiveness over the past several months; a forgiveness that really only prepared me for the moments for living on foreign soil that temporarily was called my home. The peace for traveling over five thousand miles away from where it is comfortable to a foreign land, a different dialect, and a very different way of living. One thing that remains the same: The beating heart, the soul and spirit, the gospel is forever absolute TRUTH, even to a deprived wondering people who choose not to follow Him. There is a remnant that is there where my feet walked. A vibrant small spark that is really burning and making a difference Yes Jesus Christ is there.

That very presence of the Lord did grant a confidence and peace that only comes from the Master himself. From a very significant family where the spirit definitely is living in them. To a man who is a very godly man, who knows the Savior and lives it out with his life and the passion to carry out the vision of the gospel through rescue and passion. The staff that the King has brought together at every location - WOW. All of them are filled with Heavenly peace, and it shows. They run like a well running engine: Abba he is "motor" truly the King. The fuel is the Spirit. And the longevity of true comes for Jesus Christ's blood that is like the oil that keeps it all flowing and running smoothly. God is so wonderful in how he is working. I only wish that humanity and it's fall had not taken it's toll on the precious lives that it has.

Rapha Kids Club - prevention at the core and so many to reach! Many sponsored; 140+ but we need so many more sponsorships to be met! Safe houses/freedom centers prayer, support and so much more yet needs to meet. My prayer was for the Lord to give five for five! I have five princesses of my own granted from Heaven so it was asked of the Lord to grant five to pray for regularly to remember their faces. He fulfilled for now I know their names, I touched their hands and they are forever imprinted upon my heart by name, face and touch! They have names that I know but for their safety remain anonymous to the electronic world for now! But I know them and they know me, I will be their "mum" as they pleaded for me to be. I know Yahweh is their Jehovah Jirah! I Believe they will be FREE like the one I met on Sunday morning October 16, 2011. I know it full well.

My emotion is stirring right now, therefore it is time to draw this to a close. But if you would remember the one hundred and thirty nine girls and all of the staff that care for them right now and the others who may have wondered in your daily devotional prayers. I implore you for it would be deeply appreciated.

They are girls who need a "mum" interceding for them and their safety and healing. Please, Please won't you be their PRAYER WARRIOR as the natives literally love on them to FREE THEM?!

All in the name of Jesus Christ I write and try to be a voice through pen.
Amen and Amen

Monday, October 17, 2011

Rapha House Trailer

Tarah Has a wonderful blog chronicling our adventure up to this point so let me direct you to her blog: This is one of our sisters who has been writing our journey along the way and thought I would direct you to her pen/type. Until we meet again. Take if Tara. ;-)

Sunday, October 16, 2011

how to convey it in words so late

Colossians 3:16 "Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with with all wisdom through psalms, hymns and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your heart."

As I sit with these girls I am amazed and sit in awe wonder. Wonder because I will not ask any questions yet I know with out a shadow or doubt that they have heard, have seen and have experienced no little girl or young lady should ever experience. EVER! Explotation is wickedly evil. And the demand seems to me to be even more evil. If there were no perversion then these sweet flower fragrented girls would not be ones who would have been abused in this way. The sweetness of their new home is wonderful. The girls are smiling again.

Safe House Wonders of Cambodia

Hello from Cambodia,

The moment of Today is a reflection of how big our God is! God is Amazing in how he has granted great provisions. However what is AWFUL is the people here no not of our AMAZING God! How great He is and how lost they are! When riding the "Tuk-Tuk" today I sit in wonder of how the " Men are like Gold and the women are like cloth." Let me explain that phrase,

Gold when it is dirty can be cleaned up, polished and still have it's worth. Material when it is dirty it is forever stain and considered worthless. Women and children here are considered property. Little girls, young girls are seen as the ones to take care of their family however, they are "sold as property" with no value.

My five girls are the MOST VALUABLE assets that we have been humbly privileged to have as PRINCESSES! I Praise my Lord and Savior for giving them to us in the USA. I look into these most wonderful eyes of every girl and my heart aches for them. Aches to want to show them they are wonderful!!! Psalm 139! They are so BEAUTIFUL! Yet they are so hurt from what their culture handed to them. Rapha is a wonderful HOPE for them. Hope because this morning sit next to "_ _ _" she smiled and said, "I am a Rapha girl and I FREE for FOUR YEARS!" with the most wonderful smile in her eyes and across her face as she shined for Jesus! WOW!!!! She brought her sister for the very first time from a "far away province"because she is excited to share her JESUS with her people. May there continue to be more "_ _ _ 's" and someday there will be no more need for RAPHA TO EXIST!!!!! That is my PRAYER - the safe house that is NO LONGER NECESSARY!!! It will Happen!

In Jesus most wonderful name AMEN AND AMEN!!! God Keep Blessing the Family you already have been working with. For their safety I will keep them anonomous.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

"Exhausting Yet REWARDING" - Ana Salas

Psalm 82:3-4

Ana Salas, is so right in how it was today! We went to Women's' Island, and to Kids Club in Phenom Penh. Oh how do I try and convey that? One can not put it into words correctly. Rapha House is a wonderful mission based out of Joplin, Mo.

One that makes a difference due One Christian meeting another Native Christian man who had a passion and a vision. One that led to a wonderful program to save the Heart and the awful atrocities of Human Trafficking or call it what it is . . . . sex trafficking. Girls as young as 4-6 years of age to the late twenties. In a country that had the killing fields of Karon Rouge in the seventies both heart breaking.

Yes today was exhausting but very REWARDING! Praise the Lord!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

One more flight

Wow! It has Been AMAZING how the Lord is working already!!!!

We are almost there. Been in route for about 48 hours! GOD SPEED!!! Have to run it is time to catch the NEXT and last flight before on the right "SOIL"!


I met my Brothers and SISTAS and they are AWEMAZING to be with!!! I sing to the Heavens rejoicing. Movie preview: While on one of our very long flights I recommend to watch. However be Ready. Oranges and Sunshine. Let me know what you think. IT MADE ME THINK!!!!

I forgot to mention that I am thirteen hours ahead and on a different day then my family back HOME. It is October 12, for me and for them it is October 11. WOW!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

All my days

". . . All the days ordained for me were written in you book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How Vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, They would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you." Psalm 139:16-18

I am so thrilled to know that it is a time to "GO" and know that my life is in His hands. I know full well the wonders of my life and my name are engraved in the Palm of His Hand. I am in AWE of that. Last night I went to a Salad Supper at CCC and sat by some wonderful women of God. Those I sat with Last night Sweet to the Soul. Tatia, Kathy, Jeanenne, Linda, Sally Jo, Terry, Kim, Teresa and many more. It was sweet. He has ordained my life to reflect HIS and it is very humbling. I am in AWE of this wonderful Abba, Father, GOD - I AM!

So today Abba, I give you all of my Life and I thank You for the family of God and how you are bringing our first son into our home. Thank You Abba, THANK YOU for "All of my days!" for they are rich.

Jordan and Mya Engagement
Copy rights apply to photo above!

Friday, October 7, 2011


How is it one could think of harming little ones like this? How?! Around the world there are children and young girls neglected and abused by the ugly harshness of Human Trafficking. The next time you look into their eyes pray for the many who are Human Traffic victims and know that the Lord asks us to speak up and against such travesty. Read Luke 18:16 - ff.

Titus 2:3 Ladies, speak up and be set apart. "Teach older women to be reverant in the way that they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to too much wine, but to teach what is good."

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


Why? Why do we become anxious? Why do we think we need to be "in control of EVERYTHING?" What is the struggle about? really?

I am so excited for what is in my life right now. God has really been working on my heart A LOT and it all began with a study on Unconditional Forgiveness & "The Joseph Journey" - both by Brian Zahnd. Cultivating, burying, dieing, watering, sprouting, journey to growth. So much has been permeating this heart, soul, life of mine. It is inexpressible. Why? Because it is a journey with my FIRST LOVE!!!

OUCH. Yet very necessary. Pruning. rightfully so. Vices necessary to be rid of. Pent up pasts now is the time to take care of . . . and boy is He.

He has been speaking to me for quite some time. It has brought some pain. Some deep stretching. Like I said before agonizing pruning but very necessary. When walking with Jesus it requires FAITH! BELIEF! Obedience!!!

Then His voice whispers to me, "Ana, are your ready?" my sheepish soft reply, "I don't know but I am willing. Is it going to .. . . you know hurt?" "Yes. It may be harder more so in some areas than others. But are you ready? Some others are not going to understand." I trust you Lord, Your the only one I am truly able to fully trust. I am ready. Hold me please. And as Hadassah has been saying, "Don't LEAVE ME, please don't leave me!"

Then he says,
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the PEACE of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" - Philippians 4:6-7

It is time. Our journey has begun. Don't run. Just persevere and remain steady and OBEY.

Thank You, Lord. I LOVE YOU! I TRUST YOU. I am willing - YOU WILL BE DONE!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

It's Time

I can not believe it. It is here. Time to serve on the long awaited prayer since June 2008. It is actually here. Amazing how much has happened since that summer! I have been having dreams. Dreams that well . . . are HIS!
In the natural face before getting ready I want to say:
To my precious family- I LOVE YOU MUCH!
Kent Thank You, Girls walk in Jesus ALL the days of your LIFE!!! SHINE for Jesus!!! Our family mantra since . . . goodness me I don't know how long it has been since we started that cliche in our home as you walk out the door! Just KNOW that I LOVE YOU six so much!!! Thank You for the moments to right now. Upon my return I am so exited to share with you what the Lord has been revealing! I LOVE YOU JESUS with ALL MY HEART, SOUL AND MIND! WOW and Thank You for allowing me to be a part of answered prayer!!!!
Answered prayer is now here; October 2011.

Jeremiah 33:3, Philippians 4:8 and Ephesians 3:20

Saturday, October 1, 2011

When the Lord

When the Lord leads, and we listen there are wonderful dividends filled with adventure. Even when we are shaking our heads because "we are not in control" of the situation.

soon to be wed
Jordan and Mya in worship together with Tennessee Musicians;
John Martin Keith and Sacred June
Other four Princesses
Where I have been praying about since June 2008 with conviction
and Below are some of the TEAM I will be with in nine short soon days!

The Lord is AWESOME and WONDERFUL even in the most of true Joy. Because it is not surrounded by the circumstance of "happenstance" about us but a lifestyle engraved in the palm of the Lord our SAVIOR!

So here is just a few snap shots of my life to make me smile!

A daddy with three of his Princesses!

See Ya!

I Samuel 15:22-23
Remember, "When the Lord . . . leads where will you follow?"