Why? Why do we become anxious? Why do we think we need to be "in control of EVERYTHING?" What is the struggle about? really?
I am so excited for what is in my life right now. God has really been working on my heart A LOT and it all began with a study on Unconditional Forgiveness & "The Joseph Journey" - both by Brian Zahnd. Cultivating, burying, dieing, watering, sprouting, journey to growth. So much has been permeating this heart, soul, life of mine. It is inexpressible. Why? Because it is a journey with my FIRST LOVE!!!
OUCH. Yet very necessary. Pruning. rightfully so. Vices necessary to be rid of. Pent up pasts now is the time to take care of . . . and boy is He.
He has been speaking to me for quite some time. It has brought some pain. Some deep stretching. Like I said before agonizing pruning but very necessary. When walking with Jesus it requires FAITH! BELIEF! Obedience!!!
Then His voice whispers to me, "Ana, are your ready?" my sheepish soft reply, "I don't know but I am willing. Is it going to .. . . you know hurt?" "Yes. It may be harder more so in some areas than others. But are you ready? Some others are not going to understand." I trust you Lord, Your the only one I am truly able to fully trust. I am ready. Hold me please. And as Hadassah has been saying, "Don't LEAVE ME, please don't leave me!"
Then he says,
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the PEACE of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" - Philippians 4:6-7
It is time. Our journey has begun. Don't run. Just persevere and remain steady and OBEY.
Thank You, Lord. I LOVE YOU! I TRUST YOU. I am willing - YOU WILL BE DONE!