Time

Time is so "quick". Last Friday I had a very unique experience and late Thursday evening it was a connection.

I'd been having dizzy spells lately and long story short; after two weeks went into the maternity ward and had some tests run. While there I was taken care of by two nurses; one named Jim and the other Helen. This was amazing because in the coarse of my nurse Jim and I talking about my health, I inquired of his family. Kent just smiled and then later after Kent left, I started putting some connections together, we both had four children he had four boys and We have (currently :-) at the temporary moment) four girls, we both knew Myas' boyfriends family due to Chaz and his youngest son, Jacob graduating together, Then when he asked what Kent does for a living we discovered he knew a very dear family from our church and had the highest respect for them- Arnold and Dorothy Hughes. He mentioned that he was excited that his youngest son Jacob had graduated Last may from High school while I was saying we coming upon that milestone for the first time in about one and a half years. My other connection was inquiring of the other nurse assigned to tag team with him to care for us. Helen - I remembered that name from the end of July 2001 :-( -Yes she was the same one. The nurse who was a pillar during a very dark and hard time for me - Helen cared for me when Jordan went directly went to heaven. Why do I bring up all of this? T - I - M - E. This very kind nurse Jim took very good care of HaSa and me, and since he shared about his love for his four boys and his JACOB who just graduated with Chaz I remember them both. So When Mya came downstairs with the news of one of Chaz's classmates passing and sharing with me a few small details - God brought back nurse Jim and my conversation. Chaz's classmates name was Jacob, but not the one Mya thought but another. However, while she kept saying how we needed to pray for that family I remembered more things Jim had shared and there were too many similarities. My heart dropped because that next morning during our family worship/devotion/prayer time, Mya shared with all of us this young man, then Kent said that at his meeting the night before another individual had asked for prayer for another boy. I asked Kent, "It wouldn't have been Arnold Hughes who asked for that prayer would it?" where Kent's reply was - "yes".

My heart was touched deeply. Because at the very time nurse Jim was taking care of some tests for HaSa and me his son was going through an accident. Time is so short. I remembered how Helen cared for me in 2001. I remembered the call we had March 16th 2006 praying that Mya would live. I remembered how sincere Jim was in saying that my health was excellent and HaSa was doing excellent giving comfort to the unknowns of health a week ago Friday 3 Oct. Time - So now after my daily reading in Thess. - I pray that the gentle nurse Jim and his family know they will see their Jacob again and that many are praying for them. I will always remember my only two encounter nurses from the maternity ward at Heartland in 2001 and now 2008. They were both there for me and now through TIME I pray the Lord's blessing even in the Hard time in a loss of a child. Nurse Jim and his family could use your prayers TODAY and the upcoming days so that through TIME God will comfort them.

T - I - M - E goes by so fast. Pray.

Convicted

Wow isn't it amazing when God brings something he wants done to you how one can avoid it possibly even run away from it? Yikes the last time I had a conviction like this one well . . . I learned a lot about myself!

Could you pray for me please. Thanks a ton!

Ana-Maria

In his hands

I know . . . I know TRUST and OBEY.

John said it best when he said, "He must increase and I must decrease." Also when Paul asked for his thorn to be removed and the Lord let him know that "His (Jesus Christs) grace is sufficient" because when we are weak we lean on him. I like to be fun loving, have a good time and a bit on the dizzy side but not literally ;-/. It is so weird to have a very healthy physical yet be dealing with dizziness. I can still laugh with and at my situation and tell people on the light side that "I always wanted to be blonder (no offense to those of you I LOVE WHO ARE!!) and dizzy." ;-p

But every time I am literally spinning and off a bit . . . I pray - thanking him for a reason to lean more fervently on him! The tests for almost four hours on Friday were a relief that HaSa and I are both healthy and for that I am truly THANKFUL. I can Praise HIM for two lives who lean fully on His promises never to leave or forsake us. I praise him that we have another moment to breathe and testify to His goodness in all circumstances. I cherish the thought that our hearts still beat strong for HIM literally and spiritually~!!!

We are all in HIS hands at ALL TIMES! Have a great moment with Him - for he LOVES you deeply.

For I will praise him with every step that I take and every breath available - for both of us while we rest our heads upon his chest while being held in his arms.

HaSa

Excitement is mounting! Eagerly awaiting a precious FACE!

With each movement and every time I hear the heartbeat I get excited to think of what this precious life will look like, be like, and wonder what God has "called" this child to do because he knows this baby like no other! I can hardly wait!

With every child it has had this profound AWE wonder for me! HaSa . . . I have been praying for you and your future walk with the Lord. That you will be Holy as He is HOLY! I know you will be!

HaSa, I love you deeply and we all are anticipating your arrival. PRAISE THE LORD~!!!!! :-)
Jeremiah 29:11-ff We can hardly wait for your smile~.

Why?

Lately my days are filled with a question that children usually ask, "Why? . . . Yes but - Why?"

Oh my bible reading has really convicted me lately between the what may and can seem like like mundane 'daily' routine. Is it barometric pressure changes in the seasons that effects everyone? Is it the economy? Is it the 'election 2008? Is it . . . (you fill in the blank)?

But as I have been reading I realize it is a condition of the heart trying so hard to be filled with everything but what truly matters. A life of Truth, through the GRACE and MERCY of Jesus Christ the ONLY WAY to truly LIVE! YIKES . . . did I say that? Yep I did.

Oh our home has been on kind of a roller coaster (of majority female emotions at every level -or us anyway) but I realize that it is because all of our walks with the Lord are maturing at different levels which can cause unnecessary impatience with those we love the dearest. (Boy is Satan alive and well, isn't he.) My heart breaks because every morning we sit down and have a family devotion but boy have we been not sincere from the heart. Emily asked my just tonight, "Mommy, what?" to which I asked "What do you mean Emily?" she then was quiet for a moment that seemed like an eternity and replied " - things are just different lately, Mommy. I just don't understand . . . " 'WHAT?' " She made me think. She said that she was sad that our family doesn't seem right. Why we don't act like we really do "Love Jesus this week - we are . . . well not showing LOVE and getting really unkind here at home." Well if that didn't scream OUCH!!! :-( I gave her a huge hug and said, "Emily, I Love You and everyone - Thanks for caring enough to share your concern. :-) Let go to bed - okay?" sending her back to bed a third time with another hug and kiss.

It is true. lately . . . we are being tested. WHY? Yes, but Why?

Because he, the Lord Jesus Christ loves us and is allowing us to each come to him on our own. You know . . . we are responsible to share the gospel in every aspect but after that we each are only responsible for our own walk with the Lord. So I have been realizing even more - I can't make my girls Love Jesus Christ because it is their choice to truly choose him. You know Sunday night a special young man made a statement, "are we really listening? You know what is our communication like with our relationships? Communication is the Key." As I sat and listened to him than after reflecting on listening to the word of God's truth this last week and listening to her simple evaluation this evening - We all make time for What really matters to us and we communicate clearly with those around that matter. Communication!!! Why? Because it is vitally important to us - That's why.

Why don't we give the Lord that importance? Really. I wonder why or why we don't. People can't seem to live with out our cell phones, IMing, or TEXTing CONTINUALLY but will forget to read the bible at huge segments at a time and then we wonder why we are so out of sorts (so to speak). We will never talk to friends or treat them like we would those we live with but is it okay to communicate frustration and not Love? Those who have been "In Love" . . . do you remember all the efforts made to talk to the one that made us "crazy" in every way and it made us make every attempt possible to keep that relationship going? It made our heart and adrenaline pump! Remember? So Why do we not live that way with the Lord, Jesus Christ? WHY?

Lately this relationship that I have been having has been making me change. Is it good? Yes. Is it easy? No. Why? Because next to him - there is great room for evaluation and true improvement - that makes me grumpy because I am seeing how selfish I truly am and through that discovery He shed some light that that has been my idolatry-(selfishness). YIKES.

"Why? Yes but Why?" Thanks again Emily for allowing me to evaluate after a tough two weeks that it is all about the LOVE of Jesus Christ being my focus for improvement. Time is too short not to accept that and to not communicate with him daily how much I really want to Know him because HE is the TRUTH, the WAY and the LIGHT and no one shall come to the Father accept through HIM! Because He LOVES ME and EVERYONE who is willing to FULLY SURRENDER TO HIM and not our self.

Yes - that is the WHY!!!