JJ Heller - What Love Really Means (Official Music Video)

to have forgiveness desiring reconciliation

My heart aches for two not just one. I have prayed, prayed and prayed beseeching the thrown to reconcile two who are very similar and truly need love lavished. It's been such a short time span. It is amazing how things have turned. Bloodlines keep most tied to one another and Christ lines should keep us even more. Sure there is hurt, but why? Differences? Similarities/Likenesses? How would Christ treat us? Are we responding the same. Both have such wonderful potential. Both are His grand design. Both have captivating personalities in their own right. So why? Life is really to short not to reconcile, truly forgiving.

Yes hurt people, hurt people but maybe the way we should look into one another's heart is by placing action to that forgiveness. Both need a new chance. Both need truth. Both need Faith. Both need compassion. Wonderful they both are. My heart hurts for them both because the Lord has brought my attention to the need to love them with all that I have because He loves me that way. One knows How much I Love the other I do not think it is clear. Therefore my knee will still bend, my petitions sincere and my Love remains, even if the other never understands that I do. He forgives abundantly and I pray for that reconciliation to be true and the healing begin. I do still love THEM BOTH, and I will continue to lift them both up for blessings and honor!

In prospective

Since September first, it has been eye awakening lately, just how fragile life really is. Let me begin by expressing my prayers that are going out to The Campbell and Rouff Families. Amazingly Just two weeks TODAY, I was sitting with Angela and Donna while our group was talking openly about the necessity of being grounded in growth of the King during a study with sisters; and beginning a very uncertain path of our own. Life has seriously changed, Angela lost her daddy; whom I used to clean their home just a few years ago. Then Donna went home to be with Jesus after an accident that effected her family and the driver of the automobile who hit her. Beautiful Mom K is taking each day closer to walking on the streets of gold herself fighting renal cancer, not knowing what the next day holds. We need to be ready each and every day with passion. Passion to be restored by the Potter. I used to sign my letters and emails; "The very tender clay in His Grip," and after today and all the reflection, my heart aches for the lost!

Angela shared Jesus through her daddy's passing to two brothers who need to come to a fullness of Christ. Donna, like I said just two weeks ago sat in our study time together to share that she "Likes studies like this because they hold us accountable to reach deeper" not realizing that she herself would be with the King in less than two weeks. Mom K shared, "Kent, I am not afraid to die, I am just afraid of leaving my family behind." And she fights her cancer that is quickly traveling through her body. Just four months ago we were walking with her and laughing about how she "buzzes" making even Kent look like he is slow. ;-D Because up until that point she was walking nine miles a day before seven a.m. in AZ. Life in prospective is about reaching out and giving the greatest gift of all: The gift of Eternal Life in Heaven. Time is fleeting. It is moving way to short to not reach out and touch someone with Passion. With fervor. Through OBEDIENCE to the submission of a Savior who walked this earth over two thousand years ago because of His LOVE for YOU and ME!

I realized I am going to go back to where I began dreaming. Knowing that I need restoration by the Master Designer to do what I am created to do - Live and Love for HIM! As Mitch Kruse said and is being adapted from an article I just recently read about his upcoming book, The Restoration Road; "It doesn't take much to imagine such a similarity between the original design of a car's creator and the which Christ had for us. Unfortunately, sin interferes in our lives from the day we were born, which eventually brings most of us to a point in our lives where we hardly recognize what God intended us to be." In his book he makes the analogy between restoring cars to its original condition and our lives being restored to the design God intended for us. We are like that lump of clay, creating a masterpiece made, molded refined and displayed by The only engineer who makes no mistakes. With time after our birth, the wear and tare of the worlds temptations, our chosen path of impatience and following our sin nature & corrosion, we need to be made new again. The only way to do that is through studying the "original design." And allowing our heart to be taken apart piece by piece, then allowing him to clean, refurbish and lovingly reassemble the parts in to the whole, piece by piece. That true restoration can only be done by the authenticating hand of God by surrendering to the original designer for His glory, His purpose, His Harvest, not our own. Our hearts cry out,

So keeping in mind, here is my old salutation of farewell. Below is a great acrostic that Mitch Kruse uses to remember the authentic restoration process comes from the inside out: and keep it in prospective of what really matters.

Confess to God our proud & sinful hearts of shifting sand & hard stone

Learn His design for our lives from the BIBLE

Apply what we learn from Scripture to our daily tasks & relationships.

Yield the outcome to God.

Yours Sincerely ~ The VERY tender CLAY in His Grip,

Ana-Maria

Proper fear in respect

The only fear that is healthy is the Fear of the Lord. For He is the sustainer of Life and the creator of all!

Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart, soul, mind and strength and the other is like it. Love your neighbor as yourself. These are the two greatest commandments. So let us revere him as we respectfully fear Him.

Fear and what it is not

Oh yesterday was a wake up call. The man of my earthly heart spoke from his to us all. We all have fears but we need to face them. There is only One Fear that is necessary in our life and that I will tell you about later.

Sadly before he walked out the door, her heart took a double beat, maybe skipped a beat than it may have been an irregular rhythm. What is going on? Why is it reacting like this? There is nothing to fear but we all carry them. She tried to fathom the depth of his statement. "I am coming home, then I am going to leave because I don't know how much longer I will have her." She knew how it must pain him. She grabbed him, tenderly kissed him and said a very quick prayer. Its' been three weeks in a row. Time is fleeting with the goodness still left to enjoy. A deep breath, a sigh then a small tender tear meanders once again down that Spanish cheek - there is still joy in the midst of pain, The hope for return to be sweet on both ends whom receive him. She needs them, all five of them her lover and children. Her strength for now is what is lived day by day. She is relaxing, resting her soul. He grabs his suitcase, his Taylor, and His man bag with all the reading literature along with his ultimate favorite book for strength.

He bends down, embrace her with emotion and warmth. His tender lips leave its imprint on more than her lips ~ her heart. He departs. He calls, "I need you to grab my extension for my cell." Her smile of his return and a chance to take a picture JUST BECAUSE. She feels his pain, but she is his help meet as his mate, his best Friend, his lover and remains strong. They pose for the picture but there is so much more for they are bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh, they are one and now the strength of three cords is not easily broken. Although they are apart they beat as one. She will pray continuously for his travel mercies. A smile captivates her as she knows He is being carried by the most tender of all hands. He will sustain his thoughts and his heart.

Lover, I LOVE YOU - make the most of your moments for we are with you!

rain and a dream

It's raining. Fall is here. Ah, smell the fall. Pumpkins, autumn drinks, College football in the fall weather, It's raining.

The sweatshirt weather that warms the soul. A nice fleece jacket, wassail or hot cocoa, a wonderful hug from your Lover. um, Fall. It's raining today.

Dance in the rain, splash your bare feet, run to the indoors. It's Fall. Or as I used to say it Is Autumn and I enjoy this short season. It's still raining outside.

I would take tons of pictures, capture each moment to "remember" another Autumn day. It's still raining. I like rain, to dance, to run, to kiss and remember my first one with the only one I have ever kissed - all while in the rain, to hug, to remember the sweetness in the "rainy days" of my personal life. I remember a sweet rain in Wyoming with all that it brought at NebWyoDak sitting in the Rockies. Rain - is snuggle weather, a good book, a warm cup of a hot drink, sitting in your happy place. For some it is a time to take a rest and reflect. Burn a candle, light a fire pit, or ignite a chimney. It's still raining today.

Enjoy your Saturday today and if it is raining thank the good Lord of lords for giving a drink to the earth so you may enjoy His creation ~ then Dream!

Dream Big because it's raining today here my home town.

oh my heart

My mind is racing, My heart is pounding, My dreams are returning. My visions are becoming less hazy and more driven all with the reflection of a special life.

Reflection through time has come knocking on my hearts door because of Mom K's life. I have had only a short twenty five years. Why didn't I take more opportunity to _____ fill in the blank?

Why? I remember my first encounter with her and her entire family showing up at an NCC Basketball game and taking my breath away because I cared for her son, her first born. My heart accelerated at a NASCAR neck breaking speed. My body went numb and clammy all at the same time. If my glands could have went berserk it was then. They came in through those east doors entering the gymnasium; Mr and Mrs. V. Klundt, Keith, John, Julie and Keith's then "girl friend" Tabitha, who resembled me in an odd kind of way, semi look alike. I didn't know them until she said they are from out of town to see their son play basketball. I proceeded to inquire who their son was. When they announced their name I couldn't think clear let a lone give them their correct change back. YIKES, this is "his" family. The rest is history. :-) She captivated my heart when I saw her wonderfully bright blue eyes. They were a handsome family, If I could have crawled under the smallest grain of sand I would have. Then came the moment she and I had a "talk" when we were going to become "family" to ask her if I may call her "Mom K" and letting her know that I desired to call her my "Mother in LOVE." not "in - law", because I desired to have a positive relationship with her. :-) Yes it has been almost twenty five sweet memory years I have had this family as part of my hearts strings while Dad K and she: they have had forty four years testimony to marriage. Four weddings, many anniversaries, graduations of many kinds, twelve grandchildren, two grand - weddings; our life has created an incredible tapestry in our family "quilt/blanket"! Created stitch by stitch, laughter, quiet, tears, silence, in depth conversation, many "moves", surgeries, you name it we have traveled it together.

Her children can call her blessed and Can say Thank You for our life as a family. Dad and Mom K we love you! We are praying like mad for His sustaining comfort and a time to come together to live another day as a FAMILY bonded by those gentle blue eyes, touched by those soft hands, and to be here for you!

selfless love

Love is a wonderful heart issue. True Love is the BEST! True love doesn't politic for ones affections. It is patient! It is amazing how many times I see individuals who are so impatient with finding value by trying to make another think that they "love" them. It is rather sad really. Love is amazing~ that is action, not verbal ques to change or cloud ones thinking out of envy and jealousy. See I know many individuals who truly share LOVE correctly because it is a heart issue of sincere motives. Not presumptuous or flirtatious or wrong motive bearing or gossiping with evil intent. Let me illustrate it this way.

Fill in the Blanks with your personal name which is really where the word LOVE is exemplified.

____ is PATIENT,

____ is KIND,

____ does not envy,

____ does not boast,

____ is not proud.

____ is not rude,

____ it is not SELF-SEEKING,

____ is not easily angered,

____ keeps NO RECORD of wrongs,

LOVE, ____does not delight in evil but REJOICES with the TRUTH.

____ ALWAYS PROTECTS, always TRUSTS, always HOPES, always PERSEVERES.

LOVE never fails! Did you get that? If someone vies for your affections or heaven forbid we ourselves vie for another' out of selfish ambition, is that not self seeking? Or when one of the opposite sex tries to influence another to look elsewhere - (like at themselves)? hum . . . why not lean FULLY on the LORD? Because he really is true LOVE and when we capture His fullness, LOVE overflows from the abundance of our own hearts because of him living in us!

My Marmie (Mommy) is a HUGE example of this amazing example of LOVE to everyone around her ~ and I mean EVERYONE! Emily Hope since very, very young exemplifies Christs' LOVE amazingly. Mom K, has been one who lives this kind of LOVE as one example. There are many, many others I can think of who are this same epitome of illustration of TRUE and REAL LOVE. Slow, patient, long suffering, giving knowing it may not be returned or it can not be repaid, but love matters regardless with no inward expectation of "what about my needs." YES, These three are those who come to mind right off the bat, because their lavishing ways of compassionate selfless LOVE is sweet and they Love without reciprocal ambitions.

So if there is an individual who gives with expectation to receive immediate attention, don't bleed to death but . . . maybe, just maybe, it is time to evaluate TRUE LOVE through the eyes of CHRIST and LOVE as HE LOVES and live by EXAMPLE and bleed for LIFE!

Michael Bublé - Home [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

can you hear a beat?

My Spaniard ways are so embedded with the love for music. The music in my soul lately makes me enjoy the moment(s) captured in the Here and Now. My soul yearns to cry out to the wonderful Creator of ALL beings and things! He spoke it, I am in AWE of it, my head swims in wonder, my soul yearns for Him.

To sing, to hum, to laugh, to cry, to dance, to sway, to saunter, to be still, to listen, to remember, to DREAM my soul sings ALWAYS! Whether in celebration or in sorrow, whether in the quiet moment of a breath or the crazy fun ornery me that makes me, my soul sings. The rhythm of life creates a wonder of PRAISE. Planting my everything with each little echos called my life. While I pray I hear music. While reading I hear the music. While typing I hear the music. While visiting with those so dear to me in one beautiful way or another I hear music. Why? Simply because it makes me sit in His presence EACH moment KNOWING that he hears my music. He has my name engraved in the palm of his hand and He KNOWS my songs playing in my heart. Songs quiet, songs soft, songs loud he hears my tempo, my beat, my signature in every measure. He accepts each note and makes my life the masterpiece for His GLORY. It is like two of my favorite movies - The Mission with Robert D. and August Rush the music is all around.

My precious Lover, Thank you for the music. Girls, our little women, Thank you for the music. My Marmie and Daddy Thank you for the music. Dad and Mom K Thank You for the music. To all my siblings, bloodlines and Christ lines, Thank You for the music. My family in Christ, Thank You for the music. Those I have yet to meet, Thank you for the music yet to be played for I am already humming to the tune anticipated. And to the Alpha and Omega, My Abba Father God Thank YOU for being the creator and Conductor of the ORCHESTRA~ I swell with LOVE when I hear you play the masterpiece of a SYMPHONY.

Beth Moore: The Hair Brush

ramblings of a tear

The moisture slowly leaves and gently cascades its' way down the weather worn face like a slow motion picture capturing the deep brownish embers that gaze in reflection of the wonder years. The wells from those warm almond eyes known as her windows to the soul, her very being; contemplate an outcome. "All for your glory" echoes the voice deep with in, yet the heart still aches. Aches to say, "come to my hearts home; just say the word and your healing will be thy will". Truth, Belief in the perfection of the answer, acknowledging it is okay to let it fall on the behalf of those whom are LOVED.

A salty stain leaves its evidence like a dried river carved in a muddy ravine after it has dried, evidenced by its path. The sun kissed cheek, the prominent Spanish cheekbones like a soft cliff tell of the thought behind each salty white path. It is laden with emotion, embedded with memories, showing a trail on an others' behalf. Quandaries ebb and flow freely at will.

Contained,

unrestrained,

rapidly and then

at a snails pace another soft tear finds its escape route. Peace enters the scene filled with child like questions. "Can I take away their hurt?" "Why do people in their fast paced life, not just treat others the way they would like to be treated?" The old adage of the "golden rule" is somewhat not practiced as frequently as it used to be. From those in the medical profession to those incredible individuals with extraordinary I.Q.s then to the common lay person; if we could be a servant wouldn't we all like to know of what true LOVE is?

My soul yearns for mankind to come to know the greatest gift to ever be had. Life eternal with the King of kings and the Lord of lords. "We live, we Love . . ." or at least we should in a way that reflects HIM~ Yahweh, the I AM. I now realize each tear, each heart beat, each thought, each prayer, each action is a reflection of the one who is and should be living with in me no matter what ~ with true integrity. I have the desire for others to not perish. I so want people to KNOW the way to Joy. And it has all taken place due to two recent situations with loved ones that I realize no matter the cost, the reality of the world and it's cruelty, we all need to fully depend on The Savior.

To extend hope to the hopeless. Love to everyone and the ability to keep loving even when it is hard and undeserved. Perseverance when others quit, and a tenacious focus to reach as many as possible with THE absolute truth shared in love; to reach out to a world that needs it and may turn away, to the very end.

To all my loved ones, "keep on keeping on! PRESS ON until the day of completion the Joy set before you striving for the goal which matters above all. Push through and share the gospel. For in HIS wonderful T - I - M - E all things will come to pass." We must enter through the narrow gate that leads to life, and be a trail blazer to show the truth, the way and the light to the one who gives LIFE and true freedom from bondage.

In and out - BELIEVE and BREATHE

Breathe.

Be

Rely

Express

Await and anticipate

Thanksgiving

Holy, Holy, Holy

Everlasting

The King of Kings, Loves us. Anticipates us. Has written and ENGRAVED MY/YOUR name INTO His Palm. He has given me breath. He continues to allow me to inhale Him fully and to BREATHE!

I know you are in full control ABBA, My KING, My LORD, MY EVERYTHING!

Your will be done as I BREATHE!

Commitment isn't a bad word

Commitment. What happens when one truly commits to anything? I would like to think that the old adage, "My word is my bond" still exists. However, it isn't exemplified in many ways as clearly as it used to be. From politicians to wee precious children not as common "today" as it used to be. Commitment? What are we, You, myself committed to and why?

I know it sounds bleak, however I know that there is a remnant out there of individuals who are seriously committed to hard tasks that are right, true and lasting. Why? Because I work with a few people who are "committed" to EXCELLENCE. Kent and I have tried our dandiest to raise all four and now beginning our five blessings to think and act this way. Work hard, stay committed no matter what is going on around you. Even when it is looking like you are the only one who is committed to a task, remain faithful. Walk with the Lord in everything, for great is your reward for the Kingdom. When my daddy taught me to be committed to a task because it is the right thing to do, I learned a great lesson. Whether you "like it" or don't from the first day until the last day, stay reliable because you and I are one who made a commitment. It has given me a different mindset, and a work ethic that is steadfast.

Ministry. Hard work it is true! Rewarding? Yes. Why? Because when one individual is committed to the task of ministry and helping others to discover the greatest gift EVER, the outcome outlays the shortfall! See the only true example is a redeemer who came to this earth over two thousand years ago. Why? Commitment, Love, Eternal rewards that out weigh all temporary "things," that of things of this life. He was committed before time began. Committed to the point of death, that really brings life to everyone who desires it. Commitment because of LIFE given for many with his life. Commitment of the hard task of being rejected, beaten, and left for dead. Commitment to FORGIVE. Commitment out of LOVE. Commitment for all to find the greatest of Gifts - Salvation. Who is this person? Jesus Christ. He lives and he LOVES everyone desiring that none (did you get that? NONE) should perish because he is committed in giving LIFE~! YES! My redeemer is full of commitment and I love it; knowing that he gave me an opportunity to be focused, one who is willing to be committed to outreach with every breath that is taken, with every step that leads to true life abundant and free, every thought captive ~ I am committed no matter what unto my last heartbeat on this side of heaven.

What is your heart, and lifestyle committed to? Temporary or eternal dividends? Hum. "Where your treasure is there your heart will be also." Be committed to that which leads others to Him, for it is the ONLY WAY.

here at the ROCK

MIT. I so love meeting with a group of wonderful women who pray for our children. Put in another way, four + four + fourteen = kingdom answers. We can run but the spirit moves! Our time yesterday was "God is our ROCK". We all pray for one of our children and my daughter Mya, our Love. was this weeks and ironically Hadassah was last weeks.

Mya, your prayer coverage was huge. With these scriptures used during this time; Deut. 32:4, Psalm 18:2 and Mt. 7:24-25 where our hearts bend requests, needs and foresight of the four children interceded for through the week beginning on our morning together. With this prayer through scripture, "Lord, You promise to keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because she trusts in You. I pray that Mya would trust in You forever, for You are the Rock eternal. (Isaiah 26:3-4)"

Sweet one since you are part of the prayers of us all this week remember: He is Your ROCK, Your REFUGE, Your EVERYTHING! You are His masterpiece. Forgive those who persecute you in any way and LOVE them as Jesus LOVES them! In Jesus name rely fully on the only true foundation, Jesus Christ. Guard your heart, your mind, and who you "hang with" and act with Righteousness. Focus on HIM 100% and you will NEVER have a weak foundation, even when others say and act on lies. Be confident with Jesus Christ cradling you. Lean fully on Jesus, the absolute TRUTH of His word. Know you are His pleasure and you are written/ ENGRAVED on His palm as His true loved one.

My prayer for you through scripture for those about you, and during the test of the flesh and it's trials personally and from assaults from others is this ::

"Open ______'s eyes and turn him/her from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that he/she may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith. (Acts 26:18)"

Our Rock and firm foundation is only in Him. Seek his foundation for your life and you can NEVER go wrong. Answer the call He has on your life with perseverance and remain focused on him. He is there for you no matter where you go. 1,2,3 MISHKA!!! True followers keep building on that ROCK!!!

Philippians 3:20

But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ

Tune up or in tune?

The joy of a prayer, a visit and a farewell all that can free or paralyze the heart, soul and mind. All of them can take your breath away. I don't know quite how to convey the vernacular in correct tone, pitch, articulation. My "texting" is rather limited; a feeling interestingly enough to be prehistoric really. But that is where it began. Roughly a week ago :: texting until wee hours into dream land or what others may consider burning the midnight oil. Prayer vibes reverberated with a vengeance lately, a waking for roughly a week or so. When the texting began it all began to connect the spirits prodding from the week previously. Let me try and convey what goes on in my life (since a wee little girl with HUGE Dreams) frequently.

Some call it or think it may be the beginning of dé·jà vu, others view it as communion and listening to the Holy Spirit motivated to an action. All I know is that when my soul stirs with in me not to sleep, I awake and begin praying. IMMEDIATELY! Some moments are just that - MOMENTS. Other times it is HOURS. No joke! But I listen, I begin to pray and then when it is T - I - M - E to rest once again, that is where I return. Other moments when awake, it is continual arrows directed to Heaven and direct focus thrown to the Almighty until prompted other wise.

This was one of those weeks. Don't get me wrong, sometimes I am a little groggy and it is vague. But this was clear. "SOMEONE CLOSE" needed intersession. It opened many doors for clear communication later. A sweet visit. A warm talk on an outdoor weekend. Then an AWESOME experiential service project. I always need a tune up in my life so that the harvest is clearly becoming IN TUNE. The dreams are coming again. Vision that sometimes doesn't always make sense until later. This was one of those moments. It stirs still with in me. But in an odd and good way it makes me rejoice in the ability to participate. Participation is action with what comes with prayer with "feet" work, if you will allow me to say it that way that ends up with results.

Be Still and KNOW THAT HE IS GOD! It pays great rewards that are way beyond words covered on a blog page, a letter or even a text. Have a great tune up day and be in tune for the next moment/moments in our lives yet to be written on the pages we call LIFE. ;-)

Hearts, Hands with LOVE = JOY

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Here's to You and our Day!

September 2, 2010

Thursday

One special Day spent with T meant the world to me! Our Memory, My surprise, My moment to cherish with one very lovely young lady - I LOVE YOU OODLES even while painting, eating out, talking and being quiet while listening to a rocking station AIR ONE~!!!!

This is where it all began when we arrived home after a Personal Day Excuse

and a Lunch Date!

When one + One = two come together = LOVE and FUN!

Ana-Maria and Tia J.

Love Your MUM! ;-D

Here we go.

Okay, Okay breathe - MIT started today! I LOVE the evidences of answered prayers. Always have and always will! Four + Four + Fourteen = unending dividends with eternal ramifications that will be evidenced in the everlasting glory of the KING! Praise and Glory SHOUT OUT!

Bended hearts, knees, folding of the hands all to beseech the thrown to go where no man can go. To see only the out cry of the soul is speechless. A rendered Hallelujah, a plea, a pause, a tear, a smile, a silence, a confession, JOY planted deep with in that allows the everlasting PEACE from above. Unattainable, answers that are "out of the Box" and unexplainable.

MIT - One year later new things await. One year later, answers fulfilled. One year later new "stretch marks" of the soul. One year later trust in the ALMIGHTY!

Bring on the Joe, bring on the seasons Ephesians 3:20 ~ here we go, no road blocks here just an open narrow gate of the unexpected with answers through His Grace and Mercy!